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Home, sweet, home… and as Dorothy knows, there truly is no place like it! I made progress again as I traveled home, staying curious along the way and noticing times in the past that would allure me in directions that weren't as healthy as I'd like to be. It really hit me how much a habit it was to eat my way home rather than feel the emotions that leaving always brings. The bump in the road came after my re-entry home as I unpacked. I started snacking, which led to mindlessly eating beyond the point of true hunger. What I hadn't realized before, was how engrained a habit this was. I'm compulsive about getting unpacked as soon as possible, both when arriving at my destination & upon returning home. Part of it is in trying to save my clothes from any more wrinkles and part because i think it helps me re-enter life wherever that is at the time. But somehow, somewhere along the way, the unpacking when getting home got connected with a handful of this & then that, which ends in an undeterminable amount of mindless snacking. While I wish I'd been able to nip that habit already, I'm now aware of the specific connection, and know that next time I can instead work to build a new healthier habit in its place. What I think I'll do is brew a nice warm cup of tea to enjoy during the unpacking process instead, maybe a chamomile or relaxing herbal tea, so that after the unpacking is done, I can head right to bed.
DH has been very busy at work with several deals needing his attention, working late each evening and not getting home until after I've been fast asleep. He was unable to pick me up at the airport, and in his work obsession, he wasn't as supportive as he's been recently after other trips home from seeing my mom and when I moved our son. So, while I know my emotions were even more intense upon my return, I also know that emotional eating is only more hurtful in the long run… a lesson I know in my head, but I'm still a work-in-progress at resisting IRL.
But, what I cannot forget is that the trip was a huge success and that is the most important take-away of all. I had many wonderful moments with my mom, made many precious and unforgettable memories and had fun with her, and my family and friends there. And as I'm getting pretty darn good at doing, I'm patting myself on the back for building new habits there as i ate & lived mindfully and healthfully. For as I well know, each step in the right direction of new, healthy habits better established those routines and takes me farther away from the disordered eating habits of the past. So, good for me!, as those new healthier ways of living came so naturally there, with little effort needed… as any good habit and way of life becomes.
And now, I'm back to the routines of home that I love, exercising shortly, up to work and a call with my health coach late this afternoon. First, though, I'll begin in prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And through this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought and emotion, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal, stay curious and express my way. I'm so very grateful for each of amazing you, and have to thank you all again for your never-ending love & support. This special place we have on FS has helped me so much on my journey and I just can't thank you each enough! I'm grateful too for my family & IRL friends, having had a truly wonderful trip to Cincy making so many great memories with my mom and family & friends there, that I have a place to return to that truly is home sweet home and where I feel there's no place like, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 17 September 2014:
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1447 kcal
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Fat: 91.35g | Prot: 64.35g | Carb: 110.97g.
Breakfast: Cooked Egg White, Spicy Farmer's Market Frittata, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Nutiva Organic Hemp Protein Powder, Raw Green Smoothie. Dinner: Lemon Spiced Hake. Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's Fancy Raw Mixed Nuts, Raw Vegetable. more...
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2025 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Bicycling (very fast) - 17.5/mph - 1 hour. more...
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