Transformation Butterfly's Journal, 07 June 2018

Hello Fatsecret family,
This was my first time recording my current weight since coming back. I have to give my shout out to my buddies who journal everyday and state your progress.
This morning I physically got up and out of bed at 4:00 am to do my exercise. This was always my exercise time and the alarm clock never stopped going off. I just ignored it as I was under doctors orders not to exercise at all just go to work and come home. This type of advice was not cool as I have sever arthritis in both knees since 2008. (Back story: I was told I was walking bone on bone as no cartilage between joints, but with my own vitamin supplements and eating more fish and vegetables and exercising I overcame and then the doctors could not believe I was not suffering any pain and getting stronger and healthier.) I then had to undergo a surgery that side lined me again and doctors now telling me to do nothing. I was hit with one thing after another and another, but I survived hurricane Irma and things started turning around for the better.

I had a picture taken recently that showed how much weight I have gained, I also had people at my church telling me how fat I have gotten. (Keep in mind that these women do nothing, but sit and inhale food and they are all older than me. I took in these comments as they didn't build me up but tear me down.) This was a wake up call for me as I looked at these elders and told myself that I don't want to end up like these women, but move out of this atmosphere. This is what brought me back to Fatsecret family. I use to motivate people on this site and encourage everyone to hang in there, but I went into a dark period of time and now I can see the light again. "What does not kill you makes you stronger!"

I love the recent journal of my buddy Chesgreen as he stated "stinking thinking".
I honestly believe that you must get away from toxic people in order to improve and you must do what works for you. So instead of ignoring email alerts with journals, I started reading the journals before I went to lunch and it helped me to stay accountable for my actions.

My goal this morning was to get up and get moving when the alarm went off at 4am.
I did and got up and went to my recumbent bike that I brought out of storage on Sunday. It was my intention to ride it for 1 hour not at an extreme pace but to just start off the workout. My muscle in my right leg had another plan as it start spasming at 40 minutes into the ride. This sent me back to my bed for awhile to rest until it stopped, but I did get enough of a workout in to burn 175 calories this morning. I then read the journals and all your loving support.

These are the things that worked for me in the past and I am going to make every effort to get back to them now:

1. 4 am workouts
2. Early morning meditation
3. Cooking and eating breakfast at home
4. Using Aqualert app to monitor my water intake daily.
5. Turning off the TV and read something positive.
6. Start telling people "NO" when they try to give me foods that I should not be eating.
7. Walking at lunchtime. (Will need to locate a place to do this current temp 95 degrees.
8. Evening workouts (Tae Bo, Tai Chi, various exercise videos)
9. A poster board on my bedroom wall tracking positive moves daily with motivational images.
10. Spend time working with my plants on my patio and relaxing in this space daily.

These are the things that worked for me in the past and I slowly gave up after being told to stop.

PS: The doctor who told me stop working out is now under investigation for insurance fraud. How ironic is that? Searching for a new doctor who really wants to see me improve and not just write a prescription for medication for the rest of my life.

Slow start but I will keep going.

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342 kcal

Fat: 15.23g | Prot: 12.36g | Carb: 46.06g.   Lunch: Apples, Little Salad Bar Southwest Chopped Salad Kit. more...

2641 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours and 20 minutes, Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 40 minutes. more...