GayleMaz's Journal, 19 November 2021

Edited to add: I can't figure out how to get the photos the right direction. Guess you will have to turn your heads sideways. ;-)

Gosh, I'm surprised I haven't gained 5 lbs in the last few days. When stressed, I either want to eat everything I see, or absolutely nothing. I have stayed pretty balanced, all things considered. It is a conscious effort, for sure.

Steve's scans earlier this week show MUCH more cancer in the last 2 mos. More in his face, neck, both lungs and back. The chemo he has been on has obviously not worked. Today they biopsied his neck to send out for analysis for DNA mutation and to test which other drug combo might help. We are close to the end of any chemo options. He starts radiation again next week. This time on neck, part of face, and his back.

Not looking for sympathy, but this is the reality of life in our house. We are very realistic and know his life will likely end in a matter of months. We continue to be grateful for every single day we have together.

To help stay cheerful and upbeat, I put up our Christmas tree this week. Way early, but we needed it. We got married in Sept, after 22 yrs of being partners. So the new ornament this year is a wedding cake! It makes me laugh, and reminds me of a fabulous day, even if today is hard.

190.2 lb Lost so far: 11.8 lb.    Still to go: 10.2 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1185 kcal

Fat: 42.99g | Prot: 59.05g | Carb: 136.01g.   Breakfast: Pillsbury Sweet Rolls Cinnamon Rolls with Icing, Del Monte Fruit Naturals No Sugar Added Red Grapefruit, Great Value Egg. Lunch: Brookfield Cheddar Cheese, Great Value Premium Thin Sliced Black Forest Ham, Grape Tomatoes, Hidden Valley The Original Ranch Fat Free Dressing, Lettuce. Dinner: Spinach (Chopped or Leaf, Frozen), Kraft Macaroni & Cheese Original, Tyson Foods Chicken Breast Patty. Snacks/Other: Breakstone's 2% Milkfat Lowfat Cottage Cheese. more...