jeannieselby's Journal, 21 December 2020

Lil sister found recumbent bike for $190 at used sports equipment store, so now it's just a matter of either picking it up or getting it delivered. It should provide me with a safer source of exercise since there will be less chance of my falling.

Emotions running high around here this time of year! Apparently I've turned into my Mother/Older Sister (both died the beginning of January 1/3/06 & 1/1/10 respectively) by asking for things to be done for me the moment lil sis walks in the door. When I wasn't asking for her & bil for any help earlier this spring/summer, she was mad that I wasn't. Now that I'm asking, she's mad because it's every time she comes over. Done with it!

Mom & Mary both knew they had to ask her to do things as soon as she arrived, because she always has her own agenda of things to accomplish, along with a time line for how long she's going to be present. I knew this, but fell into their pattern anyway. DUMAS!

Nope, unless it's critical, I'm not going to play this game. I've been self sufficient all these years, I will figure it out. I had to rely on them & others for assistance while I was going thru chemo, but I was so proud of how little I asked for. Transportation and companionship primarily for my sessions. I can't believe how much more needy I have now become 2 1/2 years later. Big girl panties need to be worn. I will figure this out and be okay.

Season's Greetings y'all. Stay safe and well out there.

247.5 lb Lost so far: 49.5 lb.    Still to go: 82.5 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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3791 kcal

Fat: 203.40g | Prot: 106.54g | Carb: 379.74g.   Breakfast: Starbucks Sugar Plum Cheese Danish, Starbucks Iced White Chocolate Mocha w/Almond Milk, Vita5nutrition Btotal B-Complex with Extra B12, Trader Joe's Raw Brazil Nuts. Lunch: Popeyes Chicken & Biscuits Coleslaw, Popeyes Chicken & Biscuits Mild Chicken Thigh, Popeyes Chicken & Biscuits Biscuits. Dinner: Fried Tofu (with Calcium Sulfate), Private Selection Spicy Orange Asian Inspired Simmer Sauce, Chinese Fried Rice, Dim Sum Steamed Egg Custard Bun, Dim Sum Shrimp Dumplings, Dim Sum Sesame Seed Balls. Snacks/Other: Ruffles Sour Cream & Onion Potato Chips, Starbucks Iced White Chocolate Mocha w/Almond Milk. more...