Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 14 February 2018

I've got NOTHING. I noticed I hadn't journaled in a while though so I have decided to ramble. I don't recommend reading this. Reading this may be confusing and possibly boring as crap but I'm trying to get back into the habit of writing things that don't start with TO DO at the top.

Ok.. so it's Valentines Day which I don't really like because it's kind of a mandatory Show your love now! day. If I love someone I will tell them and show them on my schedule. Yes I'm totally being a brat about this. I hate feeling obligated to do something. I couldn't even get through the mushy card bit. Then again.. I'm not feeling all warm and squishy so maybe I'm just bitter and old and cranky and jaded. What they really need is show yourself some love day. It should be celebrated with sweat pants, bath balms, a good dinner of whatever you desire, and not require you to do a single darn thing for anyone else. Ooooh I like this idea. I'm turning the day of love into go love yourself and if someone doesn't like it they can go bugger off.

It's also Ash Wednesday... which I don't celebrate but I work with people who celebrate it. Apparently these people cannot have sugar? I'm assuming that is it because they keep complaining they can't eat the cookies in the kitchen which somewhere in my mind registers as MORE FOR ME!! and I go.. and I eat their cookie. I am logging all these cookies so it's not like I'm going wild but I don't think I would be eating the cookies at all if it weren't for people complaining they can't have them. It's like I'm compensating. I hate when I don't think I can eat cookies. All I want is the freaking cookies. So.. I ate the cookie because they can't. If you think about it I am doing the selfless act of ensuring there are less cookies for them to not have. I think... I also didn't make it to the gym so I have to workout tonight or my dinner will consist of a dinner mint.

Did I mention calorie tracking kinda sucks?? All the good foods have an unnatural number of calories. Like cookies! If the cookies were carrots they wouldn't have nearly as many calories. Just sayin.. this could be a conspiracy.

Ok I think I've rambled enough to earn my straight jacket today. Plus the cookies are gone. I only had 2. Someone was obviously was way more selfless than me and ate them all. Also.. I need to thank the HR girl who came by to chat during ice cream sundae time. Yes.. my work has ice cream sundae breaks. It also has a gym... Kinda sending mixed messages here.