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Trying to re-group myself. I haven't been weighing in on here or logging my food, but I have been watching the weight fluctuate between 247 and the now, 245.4. My eating has not been perfect, but still watched the carbs. Had a pretty harsh talk with myself and I will try to do better. Just haven't been "feeling it" lately. I don't know where my motivation went, but it has been gone for quite a few days. Going to go back through all the sites, articles, and such I read when I started doing this...hoping for the inspiration to return. Maybe take something away from it all that I didn't before. People I know say they "can see it in my face" when they find out how much weight I have lost already. I must have had one fat face cuz losing the 20+ pounds all came from there apparently.
I started to fall back into some pretty bad habits, but only for a couple of days. I watched what I ate, but I drank a few drinks way too often. I let someone else influence what I did with my body - just because I think that's what they wanted me to be like. I got over that again though. I feel absolutely horrible about dropping the ball. And I feel absolutely disgusted with myself for letting someone else "dictate" what I should be doing if I wanna hang out with them.
I'll try to start keeping better track of things other than just in my notebook. These notes do not impress me as much as logging stuff in on this site. Not to mention the backgrounds and stories from everyone. I love seeing the successes!
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245.4 lb
Lost so far: 4.6 lb.
Still to go: 85.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 0.4 lb a week
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TCM, I spent the first 40 years of my life being a people pleaser, I still do a little bit of it now, but finally I became my own person. There was a time in my life when my friends and family dictated everything about me. I did not even have my own favorite color, my own favorite music and my own favorite food. I liked what whoever I was with liked. I thought for the longest time that people would not like me if I liked things that they didn't. It was hard finding the real me hidden behind years and years of other peoples preferences. The little bit of people pleasing that I still do, is avoiding confrontations and disagreements. I don't handle them well, so my go to behavior is avoidance....still working on that one.
13 Jul 16 by member: debrafrederick
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"And I feel absolutely disgusted with myself for letting someone else "dictate" what I should be doing if I wanna hang out with them.".........Sounds like these people are even worthy of your time. Letting people dictate what you should do with your body is a slippery slope especially if it is unhealthy. I like seeing the transformations here too.
13 Jul 16 by member: Engeland
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13 Jul 16 by member: Engeland
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I recommend your first step be becoming very diligent about logging everything you eat on the site. As you noted, it seems to have more importance if you put in down "formally." Plus, by logging it on the site, it's always in the same place, so you don't have to worry about not recording because you can't easily put your hands on the notebook. And you get affirmation and support, and advice if you want, from other members. Then start planning your meals a few days in advance, so you see what you are doing right and where you need to make changes. Most important, don't give up! You can do it, and we are here to support you!
13 Jul 16 by member: pandasmom
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It isn't that lost it all from your face. That's just where it's most obvious. I've heard it called "shrunken head syndrome"...lol. One of the people on dietdoctor mentioned that you could always tell who was complying with LC because that's the first notable effect of LC. I have the same problem with my "friends". That's why I choose not to hang out much with them anymore. I've been thinking of going to gym to solicit some new ones...lol.
13 Jul 16 by member: Caterpillar2Butterfly
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I like reading the failures of the successes. Like boxing clowns, they just keep getting back up 😄
13 Jul 16 by member: LadyinDenim
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@C2B..........that sounds like an excellent plan. Sometimes you have to do that.
13 Jul 16 by member: Engeland
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OMG, Debra! I think we ARE long lost twins! I used to refer to myself as a chameleon, because I could be whatever the person that was dominant in my life at the moment needed me to be! Liberal? No problem. Conservative? I beat that drum. Convictions? Uh....what are those??? It took a year for me to decide on what I truly believed.
Teacups, I'm with you on other people noticing. I had fat face syndrome, too. LOL But for me, it was even weirder. When I told people I'd lost 20 pounds, they said they could see it in my back. MY BACK???? You noticed I had fatback??? ROFL!
The bottom line is, if you're doing this for other people to approve of you, you're in it for the wrong reason. This has to be about you, FOR you! If it comes to a social situation, go ahead a BE a snob! I'm going to respect MY body, regardless of whether you agree with it or not.
13 Jul 16 by member: mskestrela
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Socializing in an alcohol-serving setting is so tricky. If everyone is drinking something, you just feel like a party pooper to be sipping your club soda. When I feel celebratory, I like to have wine. But on a keto diet, that completely kills ketosis, so I've regretted it, as it takes days to get back on track. - days of cravings. So, not worth it. Now I just abstain and drink unsweetened ice tea.
13 Jul 16 by member: erikahollister
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When I had to go to woork-related functions that involved drinking, I used to order a Virgin Presbyterian quietly from the waitress (that's ginger ale and club soda). Because it came in a regular drink class, no one was the wiser. The soda cut the sweetness of the ginger ale so it wasn't so sugary, and it was really quite refreshing -- and I didn't have to worry about a headache the next morning.o
13 Jul 16 by member: pandasmom
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Don't beat yourself up. Start logging again. We can all do this and the support and stories from others keeps us going.
13 Jul 16 by member: Kimberly Dawn 65
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Kes, the more I learn about you the more I believe that we have traveled the same roads and jumped the same hurdles and made many of the same self discovery's. it's not a bad place to be :)
13 Jul 16 by member: debrafrederick
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I expect that the more further along you get in this journey, the more you will find out who you are. There's a great deal of support here for you. x
14 Jul 16 by member: ForJandM
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