desireewalters's Journal, 21 March 2011

I am a work in progress!
I want to say I am ok
No matter what others may say
But truth be heard , it is not so easy
To hear the way society still see’s me
Im trying so hard to stay focused, on track
But for my one step forward, I am sent ten steps back
People don’t know that their words …they do damage
At times to the point…Im unsure I can manage
I try to stay strong and not give up the fight
But nobody hears me when I cry late at night
One little comment…you said it and moved on
Careless of how it haunts me, dusk until dawn
I try not to hear you, it shouldn’t matter to me
But how I wish that you knew me….oh the progress you’d see
Im trying, Im trying, I just want to fit in
You don’t know the struggles I face from with in
Never feeling I fit or truly belong
Always looking in the mirror wondering what went wrong
I wish you could see me…the person inside
The one that I no longer…no longer want to hide
Oh your words how they hurt me…hurt me so deep
The ones that have robbed me of happiness and sleep
I sit alone, wondering if I should just quit
Maybe I was never meant to be truly fit
Maybe my place is to be heard and not seen
Then maybe for a second this world wouldn’t seem quite as mean
But I will keep trying, trying quietly to conform
Until one day I make to the title of “societies norm”

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 March 2011:
1404 kcal Fat: 30.72g | Prot: 57.34g | Carb: 249.75g.   Breakfast: Strawberries, 1% Fat Milk, Honey Clusters Cereal. Lunch: Turkey Bacon Club. Dinner: california blend, sweet sesame chicken gourmet steamer, Oktoberfest Sausages. Snacks/Other: Pears, Red Delicious Apples, Chocolate Chip Cookie Bar. more...
3520 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 25 minutes, Circuit Training - 25 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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You gave me goose bumps girl. Don't let anyone damaging words get you down. Only you truly know how far you have come. Use their words as gas to keep your internal fire burning and you will start to see the results as it won't be long. Unfortunately some people forgot to teach their children right from wrong. I know it can hurt when people speak before they think. It not only hurts you but it hurts the closest people to you as well. We see how far you have come so please don't give up your fight to become a healthy person. If you give up they have won and I know there will only be one winner in this situation and thats you! I love you and support you with my whole heart. Don't give up on you because I won't ever give up on you. I will do this with you the whole way. I love you!  
21 Mar 11 by member: Nicole77
You are doing soo sooo good.. I am so proud of you.. I am watching you now following along with you in the journey.. thank you for being a friend and being an inspiration to many! 
23 Mar 11 by member: satinwynter
Thanks guys :) 
29 Mar 11 by member: desireewalters

     
 

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