madaboutmoose's Journal, 20 July 2010

Down 2.2 lbs ... at 187.2 this morning.

One would think I might be smiling. Instead I am dragging today. I suspect hormones are in play as I simply don't quite feel myself. Much more irritable than normal. Blah. Feeling stressed but other than the regular stresses of everyday life I can't put my finger on what is troubling me. It will pass. It always does.

I also need to remember that I am wearing size 12 very comfortably. Even if the scale is higher than it has been in the past my clothes fit better. Muscle?

I think I won't go on ... and will just skip directly to my grateful list.

1. I am grateful for the chat I had with one of my buddies here on facebook yesterday evening ... it was fun!!

2. I am grateful to have the awareness that my funky mood is most likely the result of fluctuating hormones ... and doesn't really mean a whole lot of anything.

3. I am grateful that my mom is inching closer to retirement and watching her excitement build.

4. I am grateful for a decent night's sleep.

5. I am grateful for avoiding the temptation to feed my funkiness and tiredness last night with food ... it is still with me today ... I hope it passes quickly!!

Have a good day!! I am challenged today to practice kindness ... both towards myself and others. So NOT feeling it!!!
187.2 lb Lost so far: 72.0 lb.    Still to go: 2.2 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 20 July 2010:
1554 kcal Fat: 38.07g | Prot: 104.51g | Carb: 228.39g.   Breakfast: sliced roast beef, water, large egg, La Tortilla Factory Low Carb Tortilla, Kraft Singles Fat Free Swiss. Lunch: La Creme Strawberry Yogurt, Blue Bunny Light Yogurt, sliced roast beef, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Kraft Singles Fat Free Swiss, Weight Watchers Yogurt. Dinner: Lean Cuisine Macaroni & Cheese. Snacks/Other: cherries, Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch, Apple Pie. more...
3024 kcal Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Precor Elliptical - 38 minutes, Resting - 4 hours and 22 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
losing 15.4 lb a week

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Good work on not feeding the funkiness. LOL. I'm dragging today as well but I don't have any excuse. Except that I've been going to bed too late. It's all on me. I'm not feeling kindness either. But I feel better when you admit you're not feeling it either. Not that I wish that on you. But you know what I'm saying. (I hope.) I guess I mean, Thanks for being honest.  
20 Jul 10 by member: beets_yum
Beets ... I do know what you mean. I don't always 'feel it' ... and I'm feeling downright 'b****y" ... LOL!! Not that it is really funny ... I don't like feeling this way. I am also feeling teary which is really a clue to me that it is hormonal. Sort of PMSy ... except I don't have PMS anymore!! So we are both challenged today to really practice what we don't feel. That where the petal hits the metal ... it is easy to be kind to ourselves and others when we are feeling good ... not so easy on days like these. 
20 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
Very good point. On that note, I'm signing off. And going to work hard to try to feel it in the little things.  
20 Jul 10 by member: beets_yum
Me too Beets ... me too!! 
20 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
Regarding the first paragraph, it just sounds like a mood. It should change for the better with any positive thing that happens to you. :-) Have a great day buddy! 
20 Jul 10 by member: information
Lately I seem to have the kindness to myself thing down pat... but kindness to others (especially obnoxious, annoying, ever present coworkers) is seriously lacking. I could blame hormones, but it's the wrong time for that. I'm blaming being overworked and not sleeping enough. Oh, and needing a new job! It sounds like your job was stressful yesterday. That could have something to do with the funk. Exercise usually brings me out of whatever mood I'm in. It actually works! Unlike feeding the emotions with food- which is actually counter-productive in that then you get to feel guilty on top of whatever else you're feeling! So good job not doing that since it doesn't work anyway :) Make it through today and hopefully tomorrow will be brighter! 
20 Jul 10 by member: k8yk
Great job not feeding your emotions! 
20 Jul 10 by member: GilmoreGirl
Kate ... exercise generally helps me too ... just think how cranky I'd be if I had skipped that!! LOL!! I am NOT really beating up on myself ... and I think it is just a passing mood (as Info so accurately identified!). A new job sounds exciting ... is that in the future for you???  
20 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose
One can only hope! There are still really good things about my job, but the balance of good to bad has been steadily shifting over the years. I would like a change, but I'm trying to stick it out 6 more months so I can have my "5 years experience" and my 401K fully vested. But if the perfect thing came along, especially if it would get me out of Arizona and into California, I'd take it!  
20 Jul 10 by member: k8yk
Cheer up Carol. That is how I was feeling yesterday but I am bright and chipper today and ready to take on the world! lol I am thinking very seriously about all the dares I am getting lately and am almost ready to take the plunge. What do I have to lose??? Nothing you are right and I could have something to gain. Either way looking forward to having some fun during my time off. Just hope I don't lose my nerve. lol 
20 Jul 10 by member: chattycathy1955
Hey MOOOOOOOSE! I'm sorry to find you in this funk. I noticed your chart and that up fluct is telling me those foods left those negative vibes I hate so much. It may also be hormones and the weather or just a plain funky day. Can you do something that thrills you, a movie, a pedi, a karaoke bar! idk, this day shall pass.... they always do. xo 
20 Jul 10 by member: cindyshine
Replied to your comment Carol. 
20 Jul 10 by member: information
Being a woman sucks sometimes with these hormones running amuck! Try and relax - maybe take a nice bath tonight. HUGS! 
20 Jul 10 by member: MomofTwoGirls
Thank you Carol for your wonderful comments on yesterdays journal...I'm feeling like you today...in a funk..! Another good rest is in order...after I take MoMo's advice to you...a good hot, relaxing bath...hope your day and your mood improved!! hugggggs 
20 Jul 10 by member: drd3775
Funk...I'm talking to me while talking with you about the subject of Funk:) I suppose living wouldn't be living without the ups and downs. Wondering if it is possible to always feel joy? As I strive to be a "real girl", this is the hardest lesson of them all as I do not want to medicate with drugs, alchohol or food anymore when these feelings come up. I don't want to mask me anymore. I am dealing with the feelings by writing, sharing my journals and changing my perspective. I am learning not to sweat the small stuff, and to live life to it's fullest. I had a dream last night that was pretty darn nice. All my buddies and some of my family members were at a very old but large institute of learning that was made of brick. We were part of something that was much larger then you could ever imagine. Not to far from my waking life. May you find what is deep down bothering you, deal with it and feel peace. You have the right to feel funky! Play some funky music, and this too will pass:) TOWANDA!! 
20 Jul 10 by member: Lisa Online
Funks stink! Fortunately they pass. Some days I feel mad at the world, all the stupid drivers, all the ignorant people I work with and all the totally dumb things people do. I go home, bitch about all of it to my husband and we sit a collaborate on who saw the dumbest people that day. Then I feel better, got it all off my chest. Hormonal change or imbalance, whatever it is, I'm sure you will be chipper in no time. Stressful jobs do not help at all. We need to win the lottery and tell them all to take a hike. Did I help? ~ LOL. Just wanted to make you chuckle. Hope you are doing better Moose. It will pass, we know that. Have a good evening OK? Maybe a hot bath and a nice Margarita would help :-) 
20 Jul 10 by member: The Next Number
Glad to hear you are working through the funky feeling - sometimes it could just be the weather! 
20 Jul 10 by member: abbadabba
Day one of the Dare! Will she do it? 
21 Jul 10 by member: chattycathy1955
She better!!! 
21 Jul 10 by member: madaboutmoose

     
 

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