KayBuckaroo's Journal, 25 September 2018

High stress day. Uncle in critical care, mother in Europe by his side, elderly cats in my care, own dog sick and in pain, youngest son bit teacher and they tried to send him home, stood my ground with school and requested they refer to the IEP drawn up last year for crisis, and in 45 minutes my husband and I are going to put our first bid in on our first home. I have felt nauseous all day, and I’m trying to be there for my family who really need me right now. So, old me would have been downing a bottle of flavored vodka, straight to the cigarettes, and more likely than not would’ve been baking something chocolate. New me: cranks gangster rap new Nicki Minaj album, change clothes and put on lipstick. New me journals while I wait,not changing my routine.

Not going to freak out on the 5 year old for being awful at school. Not going to get uptight about this bid. Not going to meltdown about my sweet uncle slipping away. I’m calm, I’m detached, I’m focused on making it through this day and facing tomorrow.

I give myself permission to let go of all the stress. I don’t have to react to anything, I can just get through this day. I’m channeling my inner bad bitch. And, whatever happens today or tomorrow, I’ll handle as gracefully as possible. That’s the Danish way. Stoicism. Humility. Gratitude for His Grace. God be with my uncle, my mother, my whole family. I am strong enough to weather these seas.

Stay strong FatSecret family. Do something kind and caring for yourself today, even if it’s as simple as putting on lotion or taking a nap.

Diet Calendar Entry for 25 September 2018:
2009 kcal Fat: 70.71g | Prot: 67.32g | Carb: 340.08g.   Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat) . Lunch: Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless) , Cantaloupe Melons . Dinner: Oil Popped White Popcorn , Cooked Cauliflower (from Fresh), Green Olives, Kellogg's Pop-Tarts - Strawberry, Harvest Sensations Organic Kale Salad. Snacks/Other: Little Debbie Creme-Filled Chocolate Cupcakes, Halo Top Creamery Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream , Halo Top Creamery Peanut Butter Cup Ice Cream, Apples , Snickers Snickers Bar (Fun Size), M&M's Peanut M&M's, Fritos Original Corn Chips. more...

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Crikey... like the day from hell... you're doing a heck of a lot better than I would! :D Sorry to hear about your uncle, best of luck with the bid for the house, and although it'll take time... your son will change... it might take years, there might be various things that will help meanwhile, but he'll be completely different after his teens. :) 
25 Sep 18 by member: FioLog
Good job!  
25 Sep 18 by member: gigiphilby
Stay strong, you’re doing great. Very inspirational. 
25 Sep 18 by member: tiffany1908
Giant hug for you: ((((((((((((((((((KayBuckaroo)))))))))))))))))). 
25 Sep 18 by member: SoCalPam
Remember to breathe! Good job with the IEP reminder especially. With so much going on you need the school to do its job. 
25 Sep 18 by member: abbadabba
Re. stress .... I think I have discovered a unified cure for it . We ALL would benefit from a major paradigm shift. ie.. our existing culture is increasingly toxic, cold. miserable and negative. Please visit my big project about a Renaissance of romance www.TheresaVaughn.com Len 
25 Sep 18 by member: BanjoStories
And this too shall pass. That’s what I tell myself. I give my dogs in pain CBD biscuit. It helps a lot, they also have oil. 
25 Sep 18 by member: Ssorbet1
Take care. Just do what must be done and give yourself permission not to do any more than that. Ill relatives, ill animals, upset son and waiting for a real estate response. They really could become a hampster wheel in your head while there really isn't anything you can do at the moment to change anything. In the meantime do what is pleasant for you -- me I would read escapist fiction and run away that way!!  
25 Sep 18 by member: 59Carol
Take care. Just do what must be done and give yourself permission not to do any more than that. Ill relatives, ill animals, upset son and waiting for a real estate response. They really could become a hampster wheel in your head while there really isn't anything you can do at the moment to change anything. In the meantime do what is pleasant for you -- me I would read escapist fiction and run away that way!!  
25 Sep 18 by member: 59Carol
I put some lotion on and it smells wonderful of lavender which is calming!!! 
25 Sep 18 by member: Ssorbet1
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25 Sep 18 by member: besiri
Its amazing when we fully realize that our stressing or should I say distressing about circumstances in life does nothing to help the situation or our well being. Calm and rational is so much better. Are we still concerned, do we still hurt? Yes, but it doesn't have to be wrapped up in a package of nervousness edginess that wrecks havoc on our body and mind. Giving oneself permission to release the stress is the best step we can take. And, yes, we can give ourselves permission to cry out the stress when needed. Sounds like you've got your hands full, but are able to pull it together. May the peace that passes all understanding give you assurance and the needs of you and your family be met in the best ways possible. 
25 Sep 18 by member: johannagbl
You are truly and inspiration. sending prayers your way and listen to cardi b instead jk lol  
25 Sep 18 by member: Angie301988
Serenity is not Freedom from the storm but Peace amid the storm, I send you positive energy during this time <3 
25 Sep 18 by member: JMA312
hang in there girl. so glad you have this platform to air out all of the days stresses. I feel for you.  
25 Sep 18 by member: Jules721
Omg. Hang in there and bless you. Have you been using your Superwoman mug too much? 
25 Sep 18 by member: Em GI
Oh hun I’m so sorry. It’s good that you can set it aside! Personally I think you did excellent on the School issue. If there’s a plan in place then they should use the plan. Too many times schools want to leave parents out of it until it’s a big issue then expect parents to swoop in and deal with it. Follow the plan, follow routine and make sure that your child eventually learns that his behavior will have the same or similar consequence. I have issues with consistency myself but I’d think the school would be good with it. Of it gets to be too much you could go cuddle with the elderly cats. I find if I’m stressed I go to my animals and before long I feel calmer. Not necessarily better or happy but calm enough to face the next thing. Sorry it’s so hard on you and your family right now and I’ll be praying if that’s ok.  
25 Sep 18 by member: peeperjj
Every comment here brings me comfort, smiles, gratitude. Principal called, 6:30pm, suspended my 5 year old from school for tomorrow 😐. I don’t know what I’ll be doing with him yet. Dang, we’re really dependent on my mom! Don’t take your caregivers for granted. Daycare said they don’t have room 🙄😱😆🤷🏻‍♀️👍🏻💀💀💀💀💀 
25 Sep 18 by member: KayBuckaroo
Daycare is full and can’t watch him 😱😱😱 
25 Sep 18 by member: KayBuckaroo
praying for you and your family.  
25 Sep 18 by member: Retta Smith

     
 

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