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Okay, I apologize~ this is my second journal entry in one day. But after being gone for so long I forgot how to do it! I've been mulling over that gain I posted all day long. I feel terrible about it. I was doing so well for such a long time, since end of December when I came back to FatSecret. I slack off for ONE MONTH, just ONE MONTH, and virtually my entire loss is back with me. That. is. so. DEPRESSING!!!
On top of all of that I started couponing (we are saving for our wedding, and that plus my thousands of dollars in school tuition has us on a VERY tight budget). Most of the foods I found coupons for were sugary snacks, cereals, prepared meals etc. But (GULP-- swallowing pride!) I bought them anyways because 50 cents for Hamburger Helper was such a great deal! However, the consequence was my health. Not such a great deal for THAT. My tummy is round again. I have muffin top.
I guess what I'm trying to say (and you'd think I'd be a better writer since I'm in LAW SCHOOL right?? Lol.) is that I'm having SUCH a difficult time finding a balance between really trying to save money and at the same time, trying to be healthy. It seems it's one or the other. For example, Dibs were on sale. If you've never had them, they are the DEVIL!!! Delicious little bites of vanilla ice cream encased in Nestle Crunch chocolate! I ATE THE WHOLE BAG IN ONE SITTING. I'm a very all or nothing type person. I can either do AWESOME on a diet, or fail miserably. I know that's the wrong word, I'm not supposed to be on a diet I'm supposed to be doing a lifestyle change.
Today, for the first time in probably a solid month I put what I'd honestly eaten in my points calculator on the WW site. Mind you, it's not even 2 PM yet as I'm writing this entry. I'm at 34.5 points for the day already! My goal is 20 per day! And that has gone up because of my weight, for a milli-second there when my weight was at 136 I was allocated 19 points per day. Can you imagine what it will be by the time I eat dinner tonight? I am tempted to just say forget it and just start over on Friday (which is when my new weeks start on WW). But I know that if I start RIGHT NOW despite how badly I've done today I will be back on track for sure by Friday and given myself a "head-start" to my progress.
I hate feeling like such a failure. So, let me try to rearrange my thinking to a positive vibe:
THREE THINGS I'M GRATEFUL FOR TODAY
1) That my coupons allowed me to get 20 bottles of free Dawn that I was able to donate to help the animals affected by this latest oil spill
2) That I purged my pantry of MOST of the bad stuff by donating it this weekend for Stamp Out Hunger at the post office
3) That this is my first day of summer vacation from school and I have every night for the next 3 months FREE to prepare healthy meals and commit to exercising
Here's a freebie for today: In certain markets, Dunkin' Donuts is giving away free small iced coffees all day long today. PHILADELPHIA IS ONE OF THE MARKETS for my friends that are near me! There are lots of others too though:
Free Small Iced Coffee
Participating Markets
Get a FREE small (16 oz.)
Iced Coffee on May 11, 2010 at
participating Dunkin' Donuts stores
in the following markets:
Baltimore, MD Charlottesville, VA Cleveland, OH Harrisonburg, VA Norfolk, VA Washington, DC Youngstown, OH Pittsburgh, PA Richmond, VA Roanoke, VA Salisbury, MD Philadelphia, PA Phoenix, AZ
Have a great day friends~ here's to fresh starts!!! :)
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