|Start Weight:||(04 Jan 15) 241.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(18 Jan 15) 229.4 lb|
|Goal Weight:||180.0 lb|
following: scby99's own diet
performance: losing 5.8 lb a week
I want to see what I wrote in the past about needing to lose weight but I do not want to live in the past. 2013 was hard, I tried my best to keep a hold of love that was no longer there. I am still going through the emotions but I knew that it had been over for awhile and I was not a happy person. I feel love is hard but you have to love yourself first before anyone else can. So I know I need to lose the weight but I need to do it for myself and keep every negative aspect and person away. I know can do this and so can everyone else but believing and trusting in one's self is the hard part.
Updating bio, 2012 is almost half way gone, I see myself going in the right direction so now is the time to stay focused and positive. Hope to post updated photos soon showing progress.
It's almost 2012 and I bought all these workout DVD's in 2011 but was not ready to lose weight, more so scared of if I would fail or not meet my goal. I lost weight back in 2009 but gained it all back by mid 2010. As to why I was scared to lose the weight, it sucks. You see yourself so small and getting all these compliments of how great you look and you think I can eat whatever I want. I am proof you can not and I make this vow to lose back my weight and unless I get pregnant I refuse to gain weight again. Because relosing it sucks and it is harder the second time around because of the last weight loss image you are trying to achieve. So hopefully by my birthday, I will be at about 165, is my goal.