|Start Weight:||(20 Sep 13) 195.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(29 Aug 14) 218.0 lb|
|Goal Weight:||150.0 lb|
following: One Wing's own diet
performance: gaining 0.9 lb a week
Last year, August 26, 2013, I had a pulmonary embolism. I survived it! But during the testing they found a large nodule on my right lung, I was a pack a day, 30 year smoker. Of course it was cancer, I quit smoking that day. At that time I weighed about 175 and had wanted to get back to my pre kid weight of 19 years earlier of around 135. Didn't seem undoable... until I almost died from an embolism, found out I probably had lung cancer, quit smoking, faced potential death, became depressed, had a hard time breathing initially... Blah blah blah... so many excuses. Basically now I have gained 55 pounds since then. None of my clothing fits me, unless it's an A line dress or yoga pants... that frankly, I shouldn't wear in public. I can't believe I let this happen to myself but I did.
They did the lung biopsy, I don't have cancer. I need to put my big girl pants on and make changes. You would think I have enough motivation... why is this so hard?
I'm looking for a support system. I am ready to start this journey. I spent the last year moping and quitting... Now it's time to start living again and shed the baggage. I would love and appreciate any exchange of compassion and support along my way.