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I had to buy smaller bras today - one of the detriments of losing weight if you are a woman. I am sure there are women out there that would actually welcome losing some weight in their bosom, but I am not one of them. I was never that endowed to begin with and they keep getting smaller...and smaller. Heh. My size 12 jeans are now loose on me and I wonder how long it's going to be before I need a size 10. I was reading a coworker's plus size clothing catalogs today at work and realized that the sizes start at 12 - I am almost to the point where nothing in the plus size category will fit me. And that's really refreshing. The lowest I have gotten down to in my adult life was a size 10 and 155 pounds. I think I looked pretty good but I was still overweight - I had a tummy, and my arms were pretty plump. I can't imagine what it would be like to be thinner than that. I haven't seen single digit sizes since early college. I really want new clothes, but I don't want to go crazy buying them because there is so much more I want to lose. I want new shoes, too. I have been lusting after heels. I haven't worn heels in like 15 years, because being overweight it's too much of a stress on my joints and they hurt. I can't imagine just being able to throw on some heels. I have ignored a lot of fashion and dressing up being overweight. I know I didn't have to - if you look really really hard and dedicate yourself to it, you can find attractive clothes in bigger sizes. The plus size market has really expanded in the last 10 to 15 years, and it's no excuse for not wearing fashionable, embellished, trendy stuff if you want it. I personally have always stayed away from that, and I don't know why. My clothes are pretty depressing - sturdy pants, sensible sweaters, not too much embellishment or frou frou. I don't know why I dressed so plainly. Maybe it had to do with self confidence and caring about how I looked. I don't know why I haven't cared about the way I've looked for years - not wearing makeup, not dressing up, wearing ill fitting clothes. I've been downright frumpy. And I didn't have to be. I just chose to be. I think it boils down to just not feeling attractive. Not feeling sexy at all. For years.
Diet Calendar Entries for 15 May 2012:
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1415 kcal
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Fat: 69.21g | Prot: 90.88g | Carb: 115.51g.
Lunch: Chipotle black beans, Chipotle lettuce, Chipotle salsa, Chipotle salsa, Chipotle salsa, Chipotle steak, Chipotle guacamole, Chipotle cheese. Dinner: Hidden Valley Ranch Light Ranch Salad Dressing, croutons, Kraft Fat Free Cheddar Cheese, avocado, ham, turkey, tomato, romaine lettuce. more...
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2713 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 10 hours, Shopping - 2 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Resting - 2 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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