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I feel like I'm getting things back under control, which you will find amusing given that I just finished a meal that included bread and a cookie. Here's the thing: Last week I had just had it with this wheat-free, lactose-free business, with never being able to eat anything yummy. And the result was that I was either eating things I knew darn well would make me really sick, or I was eating disgusting substitutes for the real thing, gluten-free stuff that has no nutritional value and not very much taste. Then, we went for lunch at Le Pain Quotidien, and I discovered they have superseeded gluten-free bread that actually tastes like bread and because it's made from buckwheat flour and sunflower seeds, it's actually nutritionally sound. So today I ordered a whole one of those breads to slice and put in my freezer, and I went over there to pick up the bread, and I had a beautiful lunch of superseeded bread, smoked salmon, butter and jam sweetened with actual sugar, not corn syrup. And I finished up with half of an absolutely delicious flourless double chocolate cookie, also made with clean ingredients that are FODMAP safe. I am practically in heaven. Now I know this is not exactly what would qualify as a "diet," but I was feeling so sad and deprived coming out of the holidays, and I really needed to have a sense that there are indulgent things I can eat and not get sick. Before the IBS, I could have a splurge meal once per week, and eat whatever I liked and go back to my WOE immediately, feeling that I could go on for as long as needed. But since the IBS, I can't do splurge meals anymore because they will actually make me terribly sick, and I was starting to feel angry about that. Now, having splurged on food that won't make me sick, I feel so much stronger. I may have gained 5 pounds this morning, but I think I'm going to be OK. I think I can get back on plan and not be so resentful. And my freezer is full of delicious FODMAP-safe bread so that if I get a craving for a grilled cheese and bacon sandwich, I can make one for myself and not be miserable for 3 days after. Hooray!
Diet Calendar Entry for 23 January 2017:
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305 kcal
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Fat: 11.71g | Prot: 14.35g | Carb: 37.86g.
Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat), Whole Foods Market Turbinado Raw Sugar, Blueberries, Cabot Extra Sharp White Cheddar Cheese, 365 Organic Original Instant Oatmeal. more...
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