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I need to express my deepest problems for advice please no bad remarks this is hard for me and It may of been posted 2 times but read and , if any health people or men who understand or woman please help me , ok here goes please no bad comments this is breaking my heart to write this but I need answers and real advice I can win this fight alone I need my Troops help
MY PROBLEM I give u a little secret about me, I had spent over 4 yrs of my life in hospitals and over 1 yr in rehab after surgeries , this is fine , what is my biggest gripe? not the surgeries not it took me 8 yrs to taper 90% off pain meds , the biggest thing that bothers me is this I was chemically poisoned by government , and forced on disability ,ok ready for punch line , I during poisoning this is some real personal stuff but its ok I am comfortable saying it , I lost lung for chemical along with that RADS disease this means when u cough u break blood vessels I can live with this now it happened in 2004 , the poisoning broke pituitary gland and my body stopped producing testosterone this bothers me most It has made me heavy I work out excessively I eat clean I check progress as weight goes down so does my muscle mass I really don't want to lose muscle as then my back fake femur fake hip is going to put me back on narcotics I want what I was on from 2008 to 2011 testosterone so I can be like any other men mine is 0 and my family dr took me off in 2011 due to endro Dr not monitoring my hematacrite so it went out of line so he fired her and I am suffering with 0 T , I can lose weight if I exercise like a althelete I suffer in pain yes , but I cant live like all men it effects more then building muscle and dropping belly fat , If I keep losing I may not be able to walk I know this , why cant i be on what 10 million americans are on for low t , I cant go to different dr since I love mine but its tearing me apart I don't want to lose weight I want to build muscle I do the tests every 10 pounds I lose I lose 2% muscle and my body fat is 27% I feel penalized and it doesn't feel good , I want what a man my age has for testosterone 450 to 500 not 0 is this asking for too much????????????? I tired every non prescription drug its all fake , I begged my dr to give me HCG its made from womans pee to like boost T in men , I begged him , give the shot in the ass , I begged him lets try hgh growth hormones I am suffering in pain , no libado, larthegic, cant grow muscle , cant lose fat @ 6 days a week in gym I lose muscle great I be bedridden in winter I got 4 months , any ideas for this problem please tell me as begging and pleading he wont give up his post , the thing is I have in my possession 6 bottles of fortesta ( testosterone)
but I cant do it unless he says and monitors blood you dont know how much I feel like rolling the dice and just using it for 3 months but out of respect of him I wont , Last discussion he said ohh u talking to gym people I replied dr u have sex u have muscle u have energy, take anti prostate cancer shot for 3 yrs which removes same hormone and you tell me how you feel , his reply is no way u not getting my approval I said u give 200 people injections he just wont make me normal
Diet Calendar Entries for 28 July 2016:
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1385 kcal
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Fat: 39.64g | Prot: 155.82g | Carb: 98.68g.
Breakfast: EAS 100% Whey Protein Powder - Chocolate. Lunch: Chicken of the Sea Solid White Albacore Tuna in Water, Fresh Express Spring Mix, Garlic Expressions Classic Vinaigrette Salad Dressing & Marinade. Dinner: Big Y Whole Wheat Tortillas, Cucumber (Peeled), Chicken Meat (Roasting), Chicken Meat (Roasting), Big Y Whole Wheat Tortillas. Snacks/Other: Cucumber (Peeled), Grilled Chicken, Big Y Whole Wheat Tortillas. more...
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2343 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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