Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 09 May 2016

I started a grateful diary. It's a cute little black leather bound diary I used to write all the things that were pissing me off in because the only time I ever felt like writing in a diary is when I was pissed off. I took all the negative pages and shredded them.. then burned them.. then used the ashes as compost. Now I have a diary that I write down what I am grateful for every night before bed. It's part of my healthcare challenges I signed up for at work. I don't have to show it to anyone BUT now I can leave it around and know that if my husband finds it he won't see endless rants filled with curse words about something he or someone else did that peed me right off. Plus.. knowing you have to write something you're grateful for even during a suckage filled day makes you remember the good parts that weren't covered in poop. So yup.. positivity. Like today I'm grateful the kids got up on their own and I only had to wrestle pants onto one of them. Oh and aggressive hugs. I love aggressive hugs. For some reason Peanut has become an aggressive hugger. He grunts, gives you a bear hug, looks at you like he is trying to kill you, then gives you a loud smacking kiss. No clue where he got it but I like his determination. He will love you darn it!! He will love you good!!

My other goals were no sugar for a month.. which I'm on day 3 off and I've only been tempted to cheat 50 times today.. but I haven't. I haven't given up carbs yet. Just sugar. I'm pretty sure if I gave up the two it would be 10 times easier but... eh.. I'm being slightly lazy. I will tackle that next. Other goal.. uh... I have a 3rd goal. Huh.. I wonder what it is. I hope it isn't remembering things. Oh wait! tracking food.. yup.. uh.. crap I have to do that. I have for 2 days in a row. Now I just have to remember what I ate all day. crap. poop.

Today I am grateful for selective memory :) and a slightly questionable logging of food. There wasn't any sugar in it.. that's something darn it!