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Good morning! The first day of the Dairy Farmers Wife Madness #2 challenge, I didn't do so hot. Way over calories, however, there was a reason (isn't there always when you are an emotional eater?) Rufus, my furry child of 12.5 years...poor thing has unofficially diagnosed congestive heart failure and his legs are not working like they used to. My husband parked right next to the house, meaning it's about 25 to 30 feet to the front door, and my precious Rufus had to stop about 10 feet from the door -- completely out of breath and had to lay on his side for about 7 minutes before he could continue to come inside where he lay just past the front door for another 20 minutes, before he could walk another 20 feet to his food bowl. This is seriously breaking my heart. I cannot tell you how many times I have sobbed over the fast approaching passing of my beloved dog. And still can if I think about it too hard. I know my life will go on without him....but it's still terribly hurtful to consider that as a soon to be reality. Today the vet is closed, else he might have passed on to Heaven where my Daddy, his sister Minnie Mouse, his mother Pig, and many others are awaiting him. They say your pet will tell you when it's time. His eyes...so expressive and in so much pain, though not a peep do you hear from his mouth. His breathing also is a good indicator that he is in pain too. And the shaking. And holding up his right front paw. And staggering as his back legs don't want to go the way he wants them to go. I had a little time with God this morning -- I had to. I am praying for His strength and His comfort to get through this. And also I am praying to not be so selfish and keep my puppy power in pain just because I want him here with me. I am also praying to be joyful in this situation, though it is very challenging for me. I will be joyful because ultimately this decision will be better for him. He's had an amazing life and he has brought me so much joy (and a little anger when he was potty training and left large surprises in random places in the dining room, and laughter when he and his sister escaped our yard and kept people in their cars when they were trying to attend a funeral....and the police were called. Fortunately, no one was bitten.) He always wants to be where I am. He abhors the vet's office and I really am sad that is the place he will spend his last moments. :( That said, I overate last night...out of sadness that a chapter in my life is closing.
Today, I'm starting out better and tonight will have a shake versus actually eating something. Trying to counter balance what I ate yesterday. I did no exercise yesterday (unless you count crying and washing a few dishes).
Contractors are here today - was planning on working from my sister's house, but with Rufus having issues, decided to stay home and work from the bed...it's mostly out of the way for them working. However, since we are moving our bedroom door to our new bedroom, we may have some interaction with them. They are working on the trim today, and building our new bookcase in stained walnut. We have so many shades of stain/wood in our house, what's one more? I'm really not into the matchy-matchy thing -- good thing. Our house is looking amazing. I cannot wait to spread back out and be in more space than our bedroom, a smaller version of our living room, and kitchen. We added 650 more square feet to our house, which was less than 1000 square feet to begin with. They appear to be really close to finishing by the end of this month. Ahhhh....I really look forward to that. Just sad Rufus will not be here to see the completed work, though he has inspected each and every corner.
I had looked for another breed of dog that was similar to Rufus....he's half Old English Bulldog and traveling salesman. Really hard to find a breed since he was mixed. I really love the personality of Old English Bulldogs, but they come with quite the price tag. I really love the size of Bull Mastiffs, however, their life spans are shorter -- but their personalities are similar to Rufus. I've had a Boykin Spaniel -- I had one that was black and white versus the registered color of chocolate and white -- they are extremely intelligent and good personality dogs. They are a medium size dog and is our state dog. I prefer larger dogs, that don't bark like crazy, and won't chew (like a lab). Tall order.
Will work on putting up clean clothes at lunch and also will work in some yoga tonight....I need the exercise.
Thanks for listening.
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 April 2015:
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1206 kcal
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Fat: 39.53g | Prot: 60.64g | Carb: 169.82g.
Breakfast: Honey Nut Cheerios General Mills Cereals Ready-to-Eat, Cereal, Strawberries, Blackberries, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk, Bananas, Dasani Bottled Water (16.9 oz). Lunch: Laughing Cow Mini Babybel Mozzarella, Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh), Mushrooms, Chicken of the Sea Smoked Salmon, Strawberries, Dole Classic Cole Slaw Mix. Dinner: Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original, Right Size Lean Cocoa Bean Smoothie. Snacks/Other: Fiber One 90 Calorie Lemon Bar, Nabisco Nutter Butter Bites, Nabisco Mini Chips Ahoy! (Package), Laughing Cow Mini Babybel Mozzarella. more...
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2790 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Stretching (yoga) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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