gilliansings's Journal, 18 July 2014

I am feeling a bit down and overwhelmed. I've probably mentioned that my daughter is moving 12 hours away soon. Her husband needs to finish his degree. I will miss my daughter and grandsons tremendously.

They were going to move the first week of September, but my SIL needs to start his new job sooner than that, so now they are moving on August 15th. My grandsons turn one and three in September and we were already planning to do their joint party a bit early. Now we have to do it on August 9th.

I haven't seen as much of my daughter and grandsons since they moved in with her in-laws in May. I have babysat a couple times here at my house and finally saw my daughter for the 4th. She is dragging, tired all the time. Packing is exhausting, as is living in a two-story house. They can do almost everything in the downstairs apartment, but all meal preparation takes place upstairs. So, when my daughter comes over here, she depends on me a lot.

I have been tired myself, working more than usual. With my back pain really acting up, it's been challenging to not over-do it. I haven't been able to work out as much as I'd like. When I do, it feels like I'm starting all over again.

I took my sons to a nice lake last Saturday and my daughter joined us. I wore myself out playing with them and helping my daughter.

This morning, I joined my daughter and elder grandson for his last swim lesson. He wasn't really feeling it this morning and I was trying not to be frustrated that I'd gotten up early on my one day to sleep in, just to see him do his lesson.

On the way home from the lesson, my daughter told me that she has been VERY exhausted, nauseous, with diminished appetite. I told her I thought it was the stress of the move. She has felt that way on and off for the last three years, lol.

Well, I went to work and when my shift was over, she called me saying "Mom, I'm dying..." I knew she was exaggerating a bit, but imagine my surprise when she told me she had just returned from seeing the doctor and SHE HAS MONO!!!

With only a little more than three weeks until they move, there is just so much on her plate right now. Now I am conflicted because I have seen her twice in the last 5 days, when she was likely contagious. She is going to need more help than ever now, but I already know how exhausted I get helping her under NORMAL circumstances. And, if I overdo it, aren't I risking compromising my own immune system and possibly coming down with Mono as well?

But, of course, I need to spend time with her and the boys one way or the other as these are the last weeks I'm going to get with them for a long time.

I'm just so sad, tired, and conflicted.

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1382 kcal

Fat: 57.42g | Prot: 58.07g | Carb: 162.89g.   Breakfast: Lucerne 2% Lowfat Pineapple Cottage Cheese, Kroger 100% Whole Wheat English Muffin, Honey, Smart Balance Margarine. Lunch: Lean Cuisine Culinary Collection Roasted Turkey Breast with Herb Dressing & Cinnamon Apples. Dinner: Wal-Mart Flat Iron Steak, Newman's Own Lite Italian Dressing, Grape Tomatoes, Fresh Express Italian Salad Mix, Publix Yukon Gold Potatoes, Smart Balance Original Buttery Spread. Snacks/Other: FoodShouldTasteGood Multigrain Tortilla Chips, Open Nature Garlic & Chive Hummus, Safeway Sugar cones, Tillamook Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, Great Value Cashew Halves & Pieces, Safeway Select Dry Roasted Whole Almonds, Wonderful Shelled Pistachios. more...

2690 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Driving - 2 hours, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Pushing client in W/C - 1 hour, Sleeping - 7 hours, Sitting - 4 hours and 30 minutes, Resting - 4 hours and 30 minutes, Standing - 3 hours, Housework - 1 hour. more...