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Up early after a nice, relaxing day yesterday. I didn't get to the book work I'd liked to, but did get in a great spin class, a much needed nap, a nice visit with a friend over coffee, mass & a low key evening reading and watching t.v. Does anyone else love the Big Bang Theory? We'd never watched it until over the last few months & now I catch the reruns quite a bit & find it hilarious.
My eating went well yesterday, not perfect, but staying (near) my course gluten, lactose & sugar aware. Now that I'm off the cleanse, I'm feeling torn about again about a WOE -- should I follow the South Beach Gluten program & can I do so while following the practices of mindful eating, should I log/not log, etc. I know I'm making it harder than it should be, but am so eager, almost desperate to get it right... if there is such a thing. I seem to be in such a pattern of doing well following my course for the short term, but always falling off the wagon (or construction truck, in my case, as I like to think about it in terms of building a healthy eating & living road). Why can't I just relax, but that number on the scale always hangs over my head as do how I feel in each piece of clothing I put on!
I'm off to zumba class shortly, but obviously need to pray for serenity first! We then have a wedding (2nd marriage for the brother of DH's best friend since childhood) this afternoon, but first I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And I'll continue praying, breathing, journaling & expressing over this one day and each one meal, moment, bite & emotion, remembering to be grateful for each of wonderful you (what would I do without you?!?), my family & IRL friends, and that I have the health & wealth to live the life I love including obsessing at times about my weight & WOE. xoxox
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