missyjunior's Journal, 29 August 2010

There will be nothing in my food diary for the weekend as I have gone off the rails. Admittedly some of its not my fault I went to a party, which was advertised as a BBQ but ended up being loads of breaded and stereotypical non Atkins friendly treats. It tasted awful but I was drinking and it lead me to eat badly so I accept the majority of responsibility after all I put it in my mouth! Today I have been very naughty eating cake...

I know its no excuse but I am comfort eating. I found out yesterday I miscarried, a baby we were told we were never likely to be able to conceive. I am aware this is a pathetic excuse but i need this food, this blowout. I already feel bad for doing it physically and mentally. I will not be weighing myself as I do not want to see the damage I have done. I will get straight back into induction tomorrow and do the best I can to repair the damage.

The only person that I am letting down is myself I know this...but I already feel that my body has let me down. A two day pity party is enough for me!!!!

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I'm so very sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Go easy on yourself and may you find peace.  
29 Aug 10 by member: Rowanfair
Thank you hunni that is very kind of you. I think I abused myself plenty with the rubbish food i put into my body over the last couple of days. Back on track for me today. I am sure god has his plan for me. xxx  
30 Aug 10 by member: missyjunior
I am so sorry for your loss. You need time to process all that you are going through. You are being too hard on yourself. Sometimes we need to take a few days to get through emotional trama and that is o.k. That is what makes us human. Take a few breaths and give yourself a pass, this was just one weekend and you have the rest of your life to stick to the plan.  
30 Aug 10 by member: cindysilkid
Sorry for your loss, hang in there and take time for your healing. 
30 Aug 10 by member: msamy034
I am so sorry for your loss. It is not a pathetic excuse! You lost something very precious, and you cannot fathom why. I feel your pain, and please know that it will get better with time. I am praying for you to heal, both spirit and body!  
30 Aug 10 by member: ctlss
I am so sorry for your loss. I agree you are being too hard on yourself. You have lost a very precious gift. I will be praying for your healing, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Give yourself the time you need. Do not beat yourself up over your choices. Allow yourself the time to greive in whatever way you need. 
30 Aug 10 by member: ALee1968
Thank you all for your kind comments. I feel that I need to keep going with the plan. The worst thing is having to go through induction all over again to kick start my fat burning. Once the sweet cravings have gone I am sure I will be better.  
31 Aug 10 by member: missyjunior

     
 

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