kmartdollie's Journal, 05 April 2013

I am trying to journal just to get back into the habit. Forgive me if I am not responding to other journals right now. I'm kind of having to force myself to get back on Fat Secret and do what I used to do all the time. Right now I am only logging my food. That seems to be all I can handle right now. I am exercising a lot, but I feel like I can't take on logging it right now. I am getting ready to run my 2nd 5K in a little more than a week, so I am excited. After this, I've really got to step up my running so I can run a 10K by June. I haven't gone more than 5 miles, I will have to push myself so I can get to 6.4 miles. A good goal, I think. I am still super pissed when people tell me I just don't get meditation or yoga. Why isn't it okay to be just like "I don't like meditation or yoga. It is not for me. Thanks anyway." Buttt nooooooo. People tell me I don't know how to do it right, because if I really understood how to do it, I would love it. Makes me SO ANGRY. Not being a Christian, I get this all the time from Christian friends and family. If I only understood what being a Christian was all about, then I would have to be a Christian, too. This makes me so freaking angry, I can't tell you. There are a very few people who I can have an honest conversation with about metaphysical stuff. I don't try to converse about it, either. But I can't get away from people trying to stuff yoga and meditation down my throat, either. The only time when I feel totally in the present, and totally calm, is when I am running a few miles, listening to heavy metal or hardcore hip hop or some serious rock and roll. Loud, fast and aggressive. Makes me feel great. I feel peaceful and centered and drained in a good way after I am done running. This is the feeling that others describe after a yoga sessions or a successful meditation. That is great, I don't take that away from them. But stop insinuating that just because I don't like what you like, that I don't understand or are not as enlightened as you are. Pisses me off.

Diet Calendar Entry for 05 April 2013:
1393 kcal Fat: 60.85g | Prot: 54.88g | Carb: 185.33g.   Breakfast: Red Delicious Apples, Atkins Day Break Peanut Butter Fudge Crisp Bar. Lunch: barbeque sauce, black beans, romaine lettuce, cucumber, ranch salad dressing, tomato, chicken. Dinner: Broccoli Flower Clusters, TCBY No Sugar Added Nonfat Frozen Yogurt - Vanilla, Hidden Valley Light Ranch Salad Dressing. Snacks/Other: Red Delicious Apples, Hunt's Sugar Free Chocolate Pudding Snack Pack, Sargento Reduced Fat String Cheese. more...


WHY should you do yoga or mediate if you don't like it? They sound judgmental and jealous because THEY know THEY could never run 6.4 miles even if their lived depended upon it! LOL 
05 Apr 13 by member: HCB
Oh, and the BS about you would be Christian if you understood...another crock. You are entitled to believe what you want - or not - they should leave you the heck alone, You want me to punch them for you???? 
05 Apr 13 by member: HCB
SO GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU HCB! Yes, please punch them for me. Make them eat an egg white omelet and some beet juice for breakfast and then run a few laps and do a Jillian DVD. Yes!  
06 Apr 13 by member: kmartdollie
That's crazy. Why is it so hard for ppl to except that ppl are all different...I don't like yoga or meditation either....I remember once having to try it out and I just couldn't get into to. I'm like you I find myself more relaxed blasting some rock music. 
06 Apr 13 by member: mntwinsfan


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