kingkeld's Journal, 23 January 2013

Goodmorning, buddies!

First of all, thank you for all your encouraging comments yesterday - as always, I truly appreciate all the interaction I see here. You guys are the best.

Today, I didn't weigh in. I did this fully on purpose. More about that in a bit.

Yesterday was such a weird day. So many things happened, mostly good, but also one truly devastating thing, which ruined it all.

I lost a great coworker to cancer yesterday. :( He was a good friend, and excellent coworker, and also the guy who got me going on exercise about a year or so ago. He was a fitness coach too, and was the guy I probably mentioned would help me get going on all the machines at my old gym. Sadly, my friend Kenny is no more.

This, really tore me apart yesterday. I didn't give a rat's a** about diet or anything else, and ate what I wanted. Talk about stress factors! So, knowing perfectly well that I would just hate myself excessively seeing a number today (and probably tomorrow too), I decided to spare myself the agony and simply not weigh in.

I have - of course - decided that one day of "mourning snacks" is more than enough. No more. But it's hard to cope with this. Even writing this journal really tears at me, but on the other hand it's good to get it out in writing. That is, after all, what this journal is all about. Get your thoughts straight, Keld. Work out the kinks, and do good. When you have issues, talk about them. When you have success, bask in it. When you are sad, let people know. It works.

And actually, as if by magic, this actually helped. A thought came to me - Kenny wouldn't have wanted me to eat because of him being gone. Actually, he'd be hitting me over the head and be giving me a dumbass grin saying "You f**kin' moron, what are you doing?". So, in memory of Kenny, I'm gonna do this right. Hell yeah.

Yesterday was not just all sadness though.

I had a great phone call from madlog.dk - the Danish equivalent to FatSecret. I use madlog (which means "food journal" in Danish, and has nothing to do with angry or crazy trees) when I teach weight loss, and I use it to track my own calories too. They are more than interested in doing some partner work with me. I get to sell their subscribtions to my clients at a discount, and I get some awesome tracking tools and ways to further interact with them through the site. Nice!

They were really curious about Fatsecret, as they had never heard of it. They were curious about what made this place better and worse, and how they could improve. In particular, I mentioned the journals, the buddies and the forum. This place is amazing! Of course, it's HUGE. Denmark is only 6 million people, and it will never be possible to build a forum the size of what we see here.

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Also, my insurance company is picking up my laptop for repair today. It has been causing so many problems and it has so many things not fully working. Finally, it died on me. I'm so glad I bought insurance on it, so I get a full repair. Now, let's all cross our fingers that they can not repair it and that they'll give me a new laptop instead. :)

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I feel so sluggish today, physically. I was mentally not really up for going to the gym this morning, and agreed with Wife that she'd kick me to go to the gym when I come home from work tonight. Fortunately, I manned up and went. Gym is done, and I feel a million times better now that I did it. Kenny was rooting on me the whole time. lol. I can't let him down now, right?

Today, I'm thankful for:
- NOT weighing in.
- Feeling much better after going to the gym. I'm glad I went already. Positive outlooks!
- A quiet day at work, with tasks different from what I am usually doing.

Happy Wednesday, folks! Life is good.
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Morning Keld, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear and supportive friend Kenny. He will stay in your heart and head and no doubt prick at your conscience when you are having a .negative day and the firm but gentle kick up the butt you feel will be him reminding you about your before and after photos and saying, "Keld, your success to date has been worth and DONT ever forget it". Much love Sazy xxx 
23 Jan 13 by member: sazy
Thanks, Sazy. :) I appreciate it.  
23 Jan 13 by member: kingkeld
So sorry about Kenny, it hits you hard when dear friends go... But you are right, he wouldn't want you to snack and not go to the gym. Amazing the effect it has on us, when we don't want to exercise, but make the effort.... Keep it up Keld... We are all rooting for you... Great news about the website wanting to partner with you.  
23 Jan 13 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
I lost my grandma recently and I know how you feel re "mourning snacks" (lovely expression btw!) I let myself have 1 day too and then got back on track. I also love the "Today, I';m thanksful for" at the end of your posts. What a great idea! I might pinch it.... ;) Have a great day today Psy 
23 Jan 13 by member: psylina
Hey Psy, thank you. Feel free to pinch the idea. I pinched it myself from... was it you, madaboutmoose? I think it was.  
23 Jan 13 by member: kingkeld
Hey Keld - I am so sorry to hear of this loss for you. Grief is an 'odd' stress in our lives...that for many...lingers. It ebbs and flows a bit. So sharpen your mental senses to combat it, and stay focused (as your friend would have wanted!!). Much Love to You! 
23 Jan 13 by member: jsfantome
My condolences on your loss pal. It is hard. I have that issue too, and it is a concern on mine with growing older. Anyway, we're here for ya, and will help in any way we can with diet or whatever.  
23 Jan 13 by member: posterchild66
Keld, you're in my thoughts and prayers. 
23 Jan 13 by member: FullaBella
Sorry for your loss. And great job exercising this morn! 
23 Jan 13 by member: jessabridge4444
So sorry to hear about your friend. Saying goodbye is never easy. As you know, the subject of cancer hits close to home for me. You are so right. Your friend would want you to take care of yourself. And yet, that momentary lapse is completely understandable. Carry on dear friend.  
23 Jan 13 by member: madaboutmoose
Yup. It was me! Some days I really need to think when I write my list. It is good for me.  
23 Jan 13 by member: madaboutmoose
Sorry to hear abotu Kenny! Hard to lose a good friend. Hugs all around. And I think you know how I coped with a recent loss of a loved one, much the same way. Diet be damned, there's ice cream to soothe the aching heart some days. As long as you're getting back on track, one day out of 30 to mourn with food shouldn't hurt too much. Good job getting back on the wagon so quickly. More hugs...  
23 Jan 13 by member: ZippyDani

     
 

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