Annabelle3117's Journal, 08 January 2014

Bravo you. It takes great self inspection to unlock those lifelong chains - messages delivered by others that bind us in fear - you just made wonderful progress doing it. 

Your Mom maybe did not want you to do the activities. (money concerns?) She came up with an answer that you did not question. You accepted it and that was that. Then you got hurt and she was validated in her mind. I worry constantly that my children will get hurt every time they did an activity. If my hubby had not been a sports nut they would have been wrapped in bubble wrap their entire lives! Picture the Michelin man and that would have been my kids! One teacher was talking about overprotective parents in class. She then pointed to my middle child and said that she had a lioness as a Mom that would do anything to protect her children. Guess I don't hide it very well? Cut your Mom some slack...but then get out there and RUN you soon to be onederland person~ 

Isn't it wonderful when we decide to make up our own minds and not let others do it for us? After you get in the groove with running, do some for me too. I can't run with the replaced knee.  

Perception is so powerful yet so eaily manipulated. It takes a great deal of introspection to figure out where our deamons actually lie. On the Biggest Looser last night, they talked a little about how much emotional change they go through.... You would not think losing weight would require so much therapy but it apparently does. it is harder for those of us who are not shut up away from society... we have so much noise to deal with. But I do think it is not just important but necessary for long term success. Enjoy your run. 

Good for you for figuring out the road block! I think a lot of those childhood issues follow us into adulthood and then it's just easier to keep them with us or more comfortable than changing or trying new things. If you want to run, run, and you'll know if your knee can't handle it. Good luck!! 

People can be assholes, unfortunately some of them are blood so we get stuck linked to them throughout our lives. At my third 5K, I walked up to pick up my race bib along with a friend of mine who started doing races with me. It was a Run/Walk 5K, meaning you could do either. My friend is tall and slender. The lady working the race booth looked down at her registration sheet where it was indicated if we were walking or running then looked at my friend and said "Runner" and handed her bib. Then she looked down at her sheet for my name and said "Runner", then looked back up at me and said "I mean Walker". Clearly, we had both registered as runners. And, it stung a little as I realize I don't look like a "runner." But, I can't begin to tell you how wonderful it felt when I passed the Registration Lady during the course of the race and finished third in my age group that day. People tend to have this perception of what a "runner" should look like, but looks are very deceiving. Although I only run for me, there is something real sweet about getting a little revenge by out running the one who delivered what I perceived as a snide comment before the race. You can do this Yolanda. If you really want to run, you will. I have had previous knee issues too (torn ACL/PCL and torn meniscus in the other knee with prior surgeries). I sometimes feel a little burn running up hills (ain't no shame in walking if you feel pain until you recover) but overall the weight loss has benefited my knees so much that the running doesn't really bother me as much anymore. 

Wow 2MC, congrats to you for putting that woman in her place! Its insane how cruel and judgemental people can be, and im sorry you had to experience that. You are very inspiring, thank you for sharing that with me! Im not sure what my mothers motives were, probably a combo of not enough money/time, regardless all was forgiven a long time ago. Granted she still isnt the most supportive person lol, misery loves company! Again, thank you all for your support!