restlesshope's Journal, 15 July 2010

Honey, its hard to break an addiction, be it food, alcohol, drugs, you name it. You need to want this for yourself. You following the plan and staying clean only affects you. If you cheat and gain - you are the only one that will be punished with the consequences. But the only way you will succeed is by wanting to lose the weight more than you want to eat those awful foods. Look at all that you have lost already. I know it hasn't been easy. But do you really want to work that hard at re-losing it all over again? I know you want this. I know you can do this. I mean, come on, you are here. And we are here with you. Lean on us and we will do what we can to help you. 

Don't kick the dog, it's not his fault. LOL!!! So you are struggling. The first few weeks always seem the hardest when your body is screaming at you for sugar and your trying to replace old habits with new good ones. I remember my first few days I would start to lose my willpower at night too. So I went to bed early. I would start feeling so stressed and wanting to throw in the towel so I would tell my husband - I know it's 9 o'clock but I have to go to bed or I am going to start chowing down on some oreos. I think when you truely make up your mind that this is what you are doing you can do it. When I was on the fence and not sure if I really wanted to sacrafice the food for the weight loss I couldnt make the change. I just told myself that I was ok with being fat. I was happy, had a wonderful husband and kids and if I was big so what. Well deep down I knew it wasn't true. Sure I was happy with my life and everything but I wasn't happy with my health and my size. It was really affecting my self esteem. I'm not sure what was the turning point but I think once you figure out exactly what you want you will make it happen. Hang in there girl and if the munchies hit you at night take 2 benadryls and hit the sack early like I did! LOL! 

Get rid of all the junk food in the house :) 

I know there are times when it gets really hard. I go back through my journals enough to realize that but honestly times do get better if you stick with it. Give yourself a cheat day if you think that may help you just remember that you have to get back on the bandwagon and hit it hard to get back into ketosis most likely. Go for a walk just to get yourself out of the house and away from the food if that helps and is possible for you. I know it's hard to get rid of all the junk especially if you have other people in the house but what helps me is being able to make chocolate or vanilla smoothies. Just make sure they are Atkins friendly. Keep your head up but like Amanda said don't kick the dog. Try to keep your main goal in mind also 

well i cant get ride of the junk food i live in a world of skinny people!and i cna not deprive them just for my lack of will power then i am punishing them for my owne lack of will power. and amanda i had just come to that conclussion that since i am waiting till every one goes to bed then maybe i need to go to bed too. but its not that i wanted the food i am not craving anything and in fact had to go surching to find somthing worthy. now this morning i am starving and i know it is because of the carb binge last night. but i just am not sure why last night i had to prove i could have anything i wanted. why does that type of thinking hit me. when during the day i am stable and happy with the diet and feel good? why am i tryin to prove that i will give up and quit why do i feel likei am not worthy of this thing working? i know i was doing very well and i felt great but that seems to be the down fall its like i am tryin to prove that this wont work and i am not good enough. i know i need to do some serious thinkin and find a way to allow my self to suceed! wow? allow my self to suceed?hmmmm gonnna have to think on that am i not allowing my self to suceed? lol i hate sefl annalysis it can be really ugly...all my life my mother told me i was a looser and a quiter and i have allowed that to be true by self denial so ami sabotaging my self subconciansly because of my own self worth? just what the h#$%^ am i doing why do i want something so badly and yet tell my self i am not worthy of something as simple as feeling and looking good? 

lol rusty is a 90 pound pit bull and thinks he is a teacup pit bull... i only ment that figurativly i could not hurt that poor baby for anything he is a great buddy! 

self-sabotage happens...sometimes its rooted in fear of success!! Weve all been where you are, and though it hurts to admit it, probably will be again. You can fight it off, one small baby step in the right direction will feel so good. I know it seems overwhelming and like small things dont make a diff but they do! you got this!!! 

Rusty is adorable, and yeah our pitbull think he's a lapdog too! They just have no clue...my husband just refers to him as "the Moose"! 

Be a little kimder to yourself. I think the reason that we "fall off the wagon" at night is because the activity of the day has settled down. The world is quiet and dark. That's the time my mind begins a journey of it's own. I think dark thoughts and that's usually when depression hits me. I don't have the distractions of the day to hold my attention. When you're facing that time, if you just can't go to bed(sometimes makes it worse for me),get online and find someone to talk to or follow threads or anything to occupy your mind until it passes and you can sleep. I like Keli's idea of taking benedryl too ,but, I also have issues with taking anything that might affect my alaertness(my issues have issues!LOL!). I know how alone you feel at times like this,but, like LC said..we've all been there, and you will come out on the other side. We're all here for you. If you fall,we're here to help you back up again. 

Restless, not sure of those that are living with you. But, can you express your feelings to them and ask if those "BAD" foods be put somewhere for the time being. Explain that you are feeling weak right now and that you really need their help and support to get you through this rough patch. You should also have Atkins friendly desserts available: shakes, Baylor's pumpkin pie, cheescake, and the such. If you need, I can send you some recipes. 

keli if you don't mind i will look in your recipe box and copy some but the problem doesnt seem to be the food or that i feel deprived but is coming from some thing else. it think candy ann has kinda hit the nail and i have been doin a lot of soul searching this morning got on the tredmill and ate breakfast the way i should made me sick but i know it is just the uneven blood sugar from last night feel like i have a hang over this morning...  

The wrong foods that we cheat with often do leave us feeling quite ill. Doesn't it make you wonder how you managed to eat them before let alone crave them now? Just like when you first started, you will fell off for a few days but it will get easier again. A lot of my recipes are from Linda's low carb website, Atkins, or friends. If you ever want, I can PM them to you. 

honestly to day i am so sick i don't think i will ever be able to eat choclate icecream again...and no i don't know how i ate that stuff all the time . does any one know how long this stuff will stay in my system before i start to feel better? 

Sometime the closer we get to what we want, the greater the resistance is pushed back against us. It is completely natural to be in this struggle. It does not mean that you are doomed. Feeling badly is a a step toward feeling better. Any addiction is hard to break, especially food. See if you can find a plan for when these cravings arise. I agree, that getting non-nutritive substances out of the house is critical. Once your system detoxes, you'll no longer want them. 

Restless, it takes us 3 days to get back into ketosis so it could take that long.