Stacyp's Journal, 22 February 2010

ugh.. trying to start dating again after a while of trying to get over complete heart break and trying to not feel like a hideous thing (yippee for mental abuse) it's sooo hard.. i went on my first date in 8 mos yesterday.. disaster.. but my friends are all proud of me for even going.. but wow he has a lot of mental issues too and it ended up feeling like a therapy session and i was the therapist.. wow. lol!!! but i was bad.. I admit..it was just going so downhill that by the end of the night i felt I NEEDED a drink.. and i've been so good but i just NEEDED it.. and i had a few beers.. as you can see i'm up a lb.. and that sucks!! but i'll be fine. i will lose it and more.
194.0 lb Lost so far: 20.0 lb.    Still to go: 44.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
gaining 2.3 lb a week

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Hey things will get better don't measure yourself from a bad date you work on you only you and as long as you're feeling GOOD everything else will fall into order! Put that smile on your Bio Pic and show us that bright light! 
22 Feb 10 by member: thecoach
Everyone needs a break from time to time. Sorry you had such a bad evening. On a positive note - today is another wonderful day! ~keli 
22 Feb 10 by member: kmartin
You're right you will be fine. Good things come to those who wait. Unfortunately the waiting is sooo hard. 
22 Feb 10 by member: Lickley
I know for a fact that you have to go through several bad ones and know and appreciate THE good one! Have fun dating, because once you find your soul mate ... you'll never get to do it again! Heheh 
22 Feb 10 by member: mms0823
Thank you so much to everyone. I will go back to just taking care of lil ol me and someday someone will come along that won't be so completely mental.. maybe. lol 
22 Feb 10 by member: Stacyp
When you are least expecting it - Mr Wonderful will come into your life. And he's usually not anyone you'd expect. 
22 Feb 10 by member: kmartin
OMG kmartin is so right!!!! I went thru a lot of frogs before I found my prince...and trust me..even Prince Charming isn't perfect. haha...Nobody is. By the time my husband found me I had sworn off dating and was taking a temporary hiatus away from men. I just wanted "me" time and to hang out with the girls. However, one night while out with them I was singing karaoke in a little local neighborhood bar..which was a weekly ritual. I knew a guy there who was a casual karaoke friend. That particular night he showed up with two friends one girl, one guy. My casual friend had pointed them out to me from across the room. They were both standing by the doorway that lead to the main bar. At the time I had too much to drink. I walked past them on my way to get a another drink and noticed the guy friend of my friend had on a shiny dagger earring. (OK it was the early 90's when guys wore long hair, leather jackets and tried to look like rock stars hahaha)So as the shiny earring caught my eye.... and as I walked past them.....for whatever reason ....I reached up and flicked this guys earring and said "Nice earring dude" and just kept on walking. hahahaha I only did it as a joke, but the joke was on me .....because he followed me. haha He then started up a conversation, asked if he could buy me a drink, I said no...but he kept on talking. I became annoyed and told him to back off me because I had sworn off men for awhile and gave him the business. Told him to run along and that I wasn't looking for a relationship, or to date or anything so he was wasting his time blah, blah blah...I was actually pretty rude. He backed off but then he kept coming back from time to time that night trying to win me over.He was charming and funny and cute...but I had my heart broken to many times and was not about to fall for that again. He remained persistent. ..I remained disengaged. hahaha...Long story short is that his persistent finally paid off. He asked me for my phone number at the end of the night, asked me pretty please and told me all he was asking for was a chance..(awww)...Well, call it fate because I was going to give him a fake number as not to come off rude, but for some reason in my tipsy abyss I forgot myself when a friend distracted me and gave him my real phone number. He then called the next day and the next day leaving cute messages on my answering machine etc..etc...Until one day when he called I was home and finally I picked up the phone before the answering machine picked up...He said who he was and said don't hang up..was being very funny and charming and so partially out of boredom I let my guard down and we had a nice long conversation. He seemed like a really nice guy..and a friendship starting forming. After that he would call me everyday just to say hi . By the end of every other conversation he would ask for a date, I kept refusing.... until finally I told him jokingly that I guess I was never going to get rid of him unless I went on a date with him. He jokingly said UH HUH. We spoke for several weeks before he finally convinced me to go out with him. Well, we went out for our first date on Valentines Day, and married a year and two months later. We have now been married for 16 years come April this year. Every anniversary I kid him and say that another year has gone by and I still can't get rid of him...and he replies UH HUH ! hahahaha Moral of the story....When you least suspect it.....love finds you. Someday your prince will come. Hang in there! 
22 Feb 10 by member: simply_witchy
Well my main squeeze and I met at work and we just friends. We were best friends and did everything together. We even tried hooking each other up with other people. It took us 2 whole years before we realized we were the one. It's been 14 years now - go figure. 
22 Feb 10 by member: kmartin
Wow! Thank you Simply_witchy and Kmartin.. I love your stories and I too am at the stage of .. I'm still working on me.. and I'm taking more me time.I won't completely build my whole wall up and not give a chance but wow.. what you both just said up there.. are very familiar situations.. and no i'm not going to start pointing at those guys and think they're my "perfect mate" but it does make you think. Seriously everyone thank you so much for the amazing support! I love ya! 
22 Feb 10 by member: Stacyp
Witchy I have to laugh at your story! It sounds so similar to mine and my husband's (which he loves to repeat BTW, don't get him started LOL!). Swearing of men seems to be the trick! Somehow once they think you don't want to have anything to do with them they're all about you you you! 
23 Feb 10 by member: Caryns

     
 

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