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Good morning!
First of all, thank you so much for all your supporting comments yesterday. It means a lot to me to know that the "Fat Secret Army" is collectively crossing their fingers for me. Thank you.
I still got the beat.
So far so good. The heart seems to be in rhythm. Let us hope that it stays like that.
It wasn't much of a hassle to have it done. The actual procedure is quick, and since I am sleeping tight, I don't have any recollection of it.
Or do I?
When I woke up, I remember feeling a "sizzling" through my body at some point. Nothing traumatizing or anything, nothing painful either. Just something I vaguely remember, like something from a long time ago.
I asked the nurse about it, and she said that I did react to the shock by mumbling a few words. It's not completely uncommon, but doesn't happen all that often either.
I don't know if it's just a normal reaction, if I didn't get all that much to sleep on, or if it's something else. It doesn't really matter. I just think it's an interesting little thing that happened.
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I didn't FULLY make it a fast day yesterday. I got hungry, very hungry, through the day. We were waiting for 7 hours(!) after the shock before I was released. We weren't home until bed time.
The end result was lunch at the hospital, a couple of meatballs (which Wife was so sweet to bring), some grapes, and half a liter of Skyr on the way home in the train.
Total calories: 1250.
Also, of course, I barely moved yesterday. I was sitting down ALL day, except walking to and from train stations.
This gave me a total calorie burn of 2500 calories.
So, total, a deficit of 1250. Too much food for a fast day, and too little food if we're talking about eating enough for a "normal" day.
Still, it's all good. I needed a 1200 calorie deficit to nudge me a little in the right direction.
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My spreadsheet dictates and RDI of 3050 calories today.
That's what I need for maintaining weight and rebuilding muscle, and I'm gonna go as close as I can, with a healthy portion of focus on my macros.
190g of protein, 65g of fat, 40g of fiber. The rest carbs. It's an easy food day.
Wife has the day off, so we can maybe have lunch together. This always helps my calories up a bit, and wife being with me helps me from not taking it too far. :)
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Today is workout day. I'm going there as soon as I'm done writing my journal. It should have been yesterday, but obviously I was at the hospital all day.
Once again, I have checked and double checked with the doctors and specialists in regards to my heart condition and exercise. There are absolutely no restrictions. I specifically asked about HIIT and strength training, and they both told me that it's good for me.
So, exercise it is.
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What is BAD for me is stress. Stress releases adrenalin in the brain, and it causes instability in the heart. This is what I do NOT want. Sadly, this is what I have quite a lot of right now.
I asked the doc about it, and was told to try to remain calm most of the time. Easier said than done.
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Speaking of stress, today I have another "out sick" meeting. I am truly dreading it, because I honestly don't think my boss sees me as sick. I have allied with two people from my union that will be there by my side.
This is SO unlike me. I have never before been in a situation where I didn't handle it myself. I have never before been in a situation where I didn't feel that I had the reigns.
I'm glad we have the support of the unions when the sh*t hits the fan now and then. It's a good thing.
Anyways, I can't wait to get it done and over with.
Next step in all this mess is me seeing the doctor tomorrow, asking for further help on my stress. I need help and there is nothing I want more than to move forward and get better.
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So, plans for today:
- Workout.
- Walk/Elliptical depending on the weather.
- Lunch with Wife.
- Dreaded meeting.
- Hopefully relax and enjoy that my heart beat is still groovin' right.
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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Working out.
- Feeling my heart doing right. I can easily tell the difference. It's a good feeling.
- Morning coffee.
- Wife.
- UNIONS!
Happy Thursday! Life is good and groovin'!
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190.7 lb
Lost so far: 151.0 lb.
Still to go: 3.3 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 9.3 lb a week
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