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Hey all!
Wow, even though I am ONLY counting my carbs and NOT exercising (for obvious reasons due to surgery), I am STILL losing weight!
I am at my all-time low now. I have never been this low since I was in college and I am a pretty happy camper about it too!
I have been suffering pretty badly though with the pain from surgery. I can't seem to get comfortable when I need to and the pain always seems to burn on the right side of my tummy the most. Yeah, I know, complain complain complain....it's what I do best. Quite frankly, with thinsg being the way they are lately, I am going to feel sorry for myself for just a bit longer....maybe until Halloween and then after that, I am going gung ho!
I know my mom wouldn't allow me to bury my head in the sand. She always knew when something was going on in my life because that's when I wouldn't go over and visit her. She would tell my dad, "Uh-oh, something's up with Candice....we haven't heard from her in a while..." and she was always right.
Well, it just so happens that the "something up" this time has to do with missing her so badly. I know people mean well when they say that she is in a better place, and I truly believe that she is. However, me being human am just a little selfish and would love my mother back here with us! If not for me, at least for my dad. It is so heartbreaking to see a man go from caring for his wife of 41 years day in and day out for the last 8 years of their life together and then "poof!" one day, she is gone. He feels he has no purpose anymore and he seems so lost. I love my father so much and hate to see him hurting this way. I wish that I could fix it.
It is only now, that I see I am the adult and my parents worries have now transferred to this generation. It is almost frightening.
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152.6 lb
Lost so far: 10.8 lb.
Still to go: 12.6 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 15.4 lb a week
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my mom died in 1995 of a drug overdose accidental!! I was at work when i found out!! It was on Oct 12 the Thursday after thanksgiving!! I had a miserable Christmas that year because I wanted everyone to not be happy and be depressed with me so i went to the cemetary and cried bymyself and felt a little better and now Ive grieved and my dad has remarried and is quite happy!!And you haave to think about all the family members that you have left that still love you!! Day by day it will get better hang in there!!!
09 Oct 08 by member: elisa150
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Thanksgiving is the last Thursday in November...I'm confused. Sorry for your loss.
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Who is to begrudge anyone giving thanks whenever they want? On the serious side, I am terribly sorry about your loss too. I lost my mother to cancer a few years ago.
09 Oct 08 by member: stumaniak
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HK3 - Thanksgiving in Canada is in October.
09 Oct 08 by member: lforbes
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Yup that it is, this weekend to be exact. It's always hard when we've lost a loved one, especially around the holidays.
10 Oct 08 by member: lttlangel
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HK3 You're telling someone who lost their mother after CANADIAN Thanksgiving in October that their date is wrong?!?! Next time I think a 'sorry for your loss' would sufice!!
10 Oct 08 by member: Keri15
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Wow....thanks for the support guys:) I was lambasted by a couple of other people here on Fatsecret for not journaling "positive" words at this point in my life. Wow-talk about insensitive a rude! I understand the power of positive thinking because after all, that's what got me through the last 19 months losing weight. I don't need to feel even worse because of a few insensitive comments about "wearing someone out" with what I am writing in my journal. That's what they wrote!!! I should be able to write here whatever I darn well please and seek the positive support from people who have a heart and actually care enough to choose their words a little better.
Yes, I am a journalist, perhaps even a journalist has moments of sadness too!
10 Oct 08 by member: strawberry1972
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Say whatever you want to say - it is YOUR journal - forget those who are too bloody afraid to admit they are miserable from time to time! They either aren't alive or they are all liars! GO GIRL!!!!
10 Oct 08 by member: nikeit
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YES!!! Thank you! I couldn't have said it better:)
10 Oct 08 by member: strawberry1972
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This is YOUR journal Strawberry!! You write whatever the heck you want!! Your TRUE F/S friends will support and comfort you during this EXTREMELY hard time. Feel free to vent and cry on my shoulder anyime :)
10 Oct 08 by member: Keri15
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Wow, thank you Keri15. I had actually wrote a positive entry today and then shortly after was burned by cobrafans insensitive comments. The thing is, I AM feeling pretty positive today:) I am only 13.4 pounds away from my weight loss goal of 138 pounds! I am so close I can taste it-AND: I owe my weight loss success ALL TO YOU MY DEAREST AND BEST FRIENDS HERE ON FS!!!
10 Oct 08 by member: strawberry1972
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Strawberry, I was told on Halloween that my daughter would die any moment, and she passed away a few days after Thanksgiving USA Nov. 29th. This time of year Still gets to me, 8 years later. You have every right to feel the way you do, when you do and to feel bad for you and your father. It isn't fair, they're here then they arent. And they are so loved. Hang in there. Hey, I'm going to email you an idea.
10 Oct 08 by member: ImLuuvd
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