kingkeld's Journal, 28 August 2012

Good morning!

I'm so glad to put "100%" at the "How closely followed" question on my weigh-in details today.

I was actually low on calories, two days straight, and I probably will be today also.

This is no biggie, It'll even itself out over time. I eat what I need to, I make sure I am not hungry and I choose smarter. That's the plan.

Snacks yesterday consisted of two apples. No bad stuff - at all. I had my usual breakfast and sane choices for lunch and dinner.

I'm not gonna say that yesterday was easy, though. I had massive withdrawals from refusing to have any sugar, and that really sucked. It had be pacing like a caged lion (at least that's how it felt to me) and nothing I tried helped.

I'm happy that I managed to steer clear of the traps, and just do right. AND it shows on the scale today - I am down another 500 grams.

There is still quite some ways to go, but I feel confident that I am going to finish what I started this time.

I will do this Indulgence Day style, so I have a weekly day with more calories - this has worked great for me all the way, and it helps me a lot to have the day off.

The only thing I am thinking about changing is to stay clear of the sugars on Saturdays too. I think that if I can do that it might make the following days easier on me, in the way that I don't have to deal with the carb monster visiting Sunday and Monday. That's usually how it works for me. A couple of days where I crave sugar after I've had it.

Why does it have to be like this?

Today is gonna be a rough day. I have three interviews at work. As I am still recovering from the surgery - but almost there - I don't have all the energy I usually have.

On a "normal day" before surgery I'd have two interview three days a week. Today I have three on one day. NOT happy. I'll have to talk to the lady that books them and see that she doesn't book me that hard another time. I hope I can make it through okay. I just might call one and move it a day or two. We'll see.

On the other hand, it's nice to feel that I'm back on track with pretty much everything - even if I am worn out at the end of the day.

I enjoy that work is more normal, I get to play music and soon my teaching will begin. It's nice.

Today is also the first day I will try to go to work without my girdle. That thing is driving me nuts. I have been sleeping without it for a little while, and I think it's time to lose it altogether. My doc told me that once I feel that I am ready to lose the support it gives, then it's okay for me to lose it.

I think I'm ready for that. I am so sick and tired of wearing that thing.

Now, of course, I have to deal with a little "pot belly" on my dashing looks again. No surgery is perfect, and now that the swelling from the surgery has come down, there is a little tiny belly hanging when I stand up.

It has to be like this, as the skin stretches differently when I lie on my back. When I lie down I can feel that the skin is stretched right to where it can go. If it was tighter, it would feel like I was straining it. So of course, it'll be different when I stand up and gravity does its thing.

However, I am so used to my look wearing the girdle, and it threw me off a little looking in the mirror this morning while getting dressed. It's okay, it doesn't look bad or anything, but I honestly don't look skinny like I did before surgery. Weird, huh?

Maybe it helps losing those last 10 kgs. We'll see.

Today I am thankul for:
- LOSING THE GIRDLE! FREEDOM! :)
- A great night's sleep.
- Morning coffee.
- Wife.

Happy Tuesday! Life is good!

189.8 lb Lost so far: 151.9 lb.    Still to go: 2.4 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

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1535 kcal

Fat: 38.72g | Prot: 100.40g | Carb: 209.08g.   Breakfast: Egg, Rye Bread, Sliced Ham (Extra Lean). Lunch: Cauliflower, Pork Leg (Whole, Lean Only). Dinner: Chicken Leg, mixed vegetables. Snacks/Other: Frozen Strawberries, Milk (Nonfat), Bananas, Free Laekkerbar, Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), French or Vienna Bread (Includes Sourdough), banana, Apples. more...

2928 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours and 30 minutes, Standing - 1 hour, Sitting - 6 hours and 45 minutes. more...