BPaula47's Journal, 15 November 2016

Hi. F.S.

Today was interesting. We went to Rhonda’s senior’s chair stretching class this morning. There were allot of people there and I’m thinking this might have thrown me a bit. The class is about half and hour long and you’re sitting in chairs (of course) and working with very light weights (I think ½ lbs to 1 lbs). the music reminds me of Richard simmon’s sweating to the Oldies, very upbeat and fast paced. Unfortunately, I was sitting right in front of the music and had a hard time hearing both Rhonda (the instructor) and my sister, Karen, trying to give me instructions. I caught what I could and just faked the rest. Rhonda did say that she rarely varies the routine so once I’ve learned the different ones I’ll be able to follow along a little better. So, I’ll have to work on the moves at home. The class is twice a week, but we’ve decided to just go one day for now, Tuesdays. Karen felt like she really got a workout. I felt like it was more of a moderate workout for me because of not knowing all the movements. There was a point there where I was just doing my own thing. In retrospect, I think this has bothered me a little. I kinda felt silly not doing what everyone else was doing, which is weird considering I couldn’t see them, but I think it was that they could see me. Rhonda told me that in the beginning, allot of the ladies (its an all women’s class) felt like they couldn’t keep up. But I think my reactions were delayed about this. I felt a little discombobulated after getting home and kind of binge ate some funyuns that shouldn’t have been in the house in the first place. But I didn’t really examine what was going on with me.

Next came yoga class. And here is where it gets “interesting”. For those of you who do or have done yoga (stretching or otherwise), has this ever happened to you? We did floor exercises today and even though my hip was acting up I was able to keep up with about 90% of them. I did have to stop towards the end and miss out on one movement that my hip just wasn’t going for. But then, the last part, the cool down relaxation part…the part I usually enjoy…just freaked me out. At the end of it, I burst into tears. It wasn’t quite wailing, ubt hell, it was close enough. I was so embarrassed. We were lying with our legs stretched out, you know, just lying on your back on the floor. No big, right? But for some reason I was just uncomfortable. And not physically uncomfortable but well I can’t explain it except to say I felt a little unsafe in that position. I couldn’t relax to save my life and after awhile, I felt like I was being strangled or something. I should have sat up right away I think, but nope. I tried to hold out and work through…well, I did hold out and make it to the end, but then when we were sitting up and doing the closing pose, I just broke down. I couldn’t hold it in and believe me, I tried. I had no idea what was going on with me. Deb, our instructor was great. She came over, gave me a hug and let me cry it out on her shoulder. I got tears all in her hair. She says that it happens sometimes and you may not know why. Just the body has to release some things. It’s a great thing our class is so small. There’s just four of us besides Deb. And I’m comfortable with everyone, of course. My therapist is there too and so everyone was great. I was just a bit embarrassed, but I guess I’ve gotten over that a little. But, good lord, is this gonna happen again? Eeeek!

I’m a little afraid to try and sus this out in my head as to what’s going on. Not sure if I want to bring it up in therapy tomorrow, though. Probably should. (sigh) Chricke! (hope I spelled that right).

Okay, gotta go plan tomorrow’s meals. Thank you for reading, you all. I appreciate it. Blessings.

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Fat: 55.62g | Prot: 99.43g | Carb: 147.96g.   Breakfast: White Whole Mushrooms, Shallots, Natural Cage Free Grain Fed Large Brown Eggs, Coconut Greek Yogurt. Lunch: Cucumber (with Peel), Ancient Grain Encrusted Cod. Dinner: Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast Filet, Shedd's Spread Plus Calcium & Vitamins Spread Vegetable Oil, MicroSteam Baby Broccoli Florets. Snacks/Other: Bottled Water, Funyuns Onion Flavored Rings (Grab Bag), Pumpkin Spice, 800 Creamy Chicken Soup Mix, 800 Chocolate Bar. more...

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Activities & Exercise: Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 30 minutes, Cooking - 30 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 1 hour, Watching TV/Computer - 4 hours, Resting - 10 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...