madaboutmoose's Journal, 01 November 2011

Good Morning. It is Tuesday. Is it bad I am already wishing it was Friday? This time of the year I find myself more tired than usual.

I didn't do Pilates this morning. My body feels stiff and sore and I decided not to push it. Still I was rushing to get out of the house on time this morning. And the hot flashes. So weird that it can be 60 degrees in the house and I am sweating!! Ah ... the joys of womanhood.

Weight was up to 205.2 this morning but I didn't record it. My system seems a little off and while I did exceed my RDI yesteday I still had an estimated calorie deficit of more than 600 calories so I'm sure there is nothing to worry about. Just a big dinner. A HUGE steak coupled with a green salad. It was delicious.

I do have to tell you than my temptation to snack is almost nonexistent on this way of eating. I believe that is positive. I was also able to eat only 2 meals a day over the weekend (the benefit of not working and rising later) and didn't feel deprived in the least. I feel almost decadent, enjoying butter and "real" salad dressing. I'll continue for now ... as I think my body may be liking this approach. My husband enjoys it because I'm not trying to substitute "low-fat" things and there is plenty of "meat" to go around. Interesting.

My son got his hair cut and beard trimmed!! I jokingly tell him all the time he looks like Ted Kacinzski!! He posted a picture on facebook (of course ... where I learn most things about him these days) and he was quite handsome. My husband agreed he looked better but was baffled as to why he would opt for a crew cut when he has a "great head of hair!!" My husband is follically challenged and would love to have a full head of hair. He is currently working (started a job last week) and also have two additional upcoming interviews for better jobs this week. I'm keeping all my body parts crossed for him. I would love to see him become more stable.

Nothing unusual with a busy day ahead. I have a report I have to get done this morning and then 3 visits in a row. My first visit will be observed by my supervisor. Something she has never done in the years I have worked here. I'm sure it will be fine but it always kicks in my "am I good enough?" thoughts.

And while I am dragging ... still important to consider what I am grateful for this morning.

1. I am grateful for hubby having a better evening last night ... makes life much more pleasant.

2. I am grateful for taking this morning's weigh-in in stride ... no worries, no concerns, simply a number.

3. I am grateful for bacon!!! Oh the sheer pleasure of it and after so many years of avoiding it as a "bad" food!!!

4. I am grateful for the positive feedback I get from those I provide services to.

5. I am grateful for a job with health insurance, vacation, and sick pay ... while I'm not getting "rich" I am getting by ... and in these times that is something WONDERFUL to be grateful for.

And so ... I am kind to myself. I take care of myself. I sleep well. I listen closely to my body's cues and provide it with the fuel it needs to effectively burn fat and shed excess pounds. I am an expert in my field and people pay me for my expertise. I am organized and efficient. I plan well and follow through. I managed strong emotions and conflict calmly. I earn $100,000 a year. I manage our finances responsibly. I have money saved for a vacation in February 2012. Our wood shed is full. Our dental needs are met. I have a source of income I can produce from anywhere. I am responsible. I am patient. I am determined. I like myself!! I love my body!!!

Okay. Time to get to it!!! Take care of yourselves. Listen closely to your body ... it is SO SMART!!!! We can learn to listen. As babies we knew how to do it ... and it worked. Somewhere inside of us, if only we would work to learn to listen, our bodies can tell us what they need. Be kind to yourselves. It doesn't help to beat up on ourselves. Truly. Progress, process, not perfection.

Take care!!

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1659 kcal

Fat: 92.53g | Prot: 174.90g | Carb: 27.00g.   Breakfast: bacon, eggs, coconut oil, shredded cheese. Lunch: Cottage Cheese, Kosher Dill Sandwich Slices Pickles, chicken breast meat. Dinner: No Stir Crunchy Almond Butter, celery, chicken breast, cabbage, butter. more...

2651 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours. more...