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After calming down and thinking about it, I have decided to cut ties with my mother. I have had a much better week without her constantly on my back than with her. Now I see how much anxiety she puts me under when she yells or pesters me, or tries to argue with me, and force me to do things I am not going to do because they are wrong for me. I want her off my books, but it will take a few months. In the meantime, I am trying to figure out how to tell her I no longer desire her as my payee without her yelling at me again, which puts me under a lot of stress. I have been the bigger person in this relationship to this point and I can no longer manage it by myself. Either she has to put equal work in and go to family therapy with me, or I cannot manage this relationship.
I am not going to hold out hope for her to want to work on the relationship. I will just live my life without her help. My case manager will help me. I will discuss with my therapist how to tell her without being yelled at. I have left the therapist a message.
Still waiting for results from my blood tests Friday morning to come back to see why I am anemic and get my thyroid supplements adjusted.
Diet Calendar Entry for 05 June 2023:
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1874 kcal
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Fat: 56.19g | Prot: 107.84g | Carb: 226.58g.
Breakfast: Canyon Bakehouse Gluten Free Mountain White Bread, Bonne Maman Strawberry Preserves, Morton Salt, Sunsweet Prune Juice, Nature Made Energy B12, All Whites 100% Liquid Egg Whites. Lunch: So Delicious Coconut Milk Yogurt - Strawberry, Il Villaggio Parmigiano Reggiano Cheese, Simple Mills Organic Seed Flour Crackers, Pineapple. Dinner: Il Giardino Parmigiano Reggiano Cheese, Sunsweet Prune Juice, Bonne Maman Strawberry Preserves, Canyon Bakehouse Gluten Free Mountain White Bread, All Whites 100% Liquid Egg Whites. Snacks/Other: Simple Mills Organic Seed Flour Crackers, Il Giardino Parmigiano Reggiano Cheese. more...
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