HerStrawberri's Journal, 21 June 2011

It just sounds like you had an off-day. No big deal; I know you can turn it around. You are doing great!  

Just keep going, you can do it!! Have your pity party and then you can move on. The exercise will be there when you're ready. You need to do some boxing or something that you can really use your emotions and just kick butt. I hope you feel better! 

DOn't worry. We all go through this. It will pass but be warned it will not be gone forever. :) Pity parties are good for the soul I think. Just get through it and get back on track. Your worth it!  

Ok ... Pity party is over now lets move on... I say this not to be mean in the least (hell look what I did to get over the pity party)... I sometimes think that our bodies don't need all the calories that we are trying to stuff into them. I have been trying to listen to my body lately rather than striving for a set amount of calories and it has been working pretty good. Somedays I eat 1000 calories, somedays its 1600 but I am never starving and I am never ever over full as I have learned my stopping point. The one thing I have learned in the last couple of weeks (especially this past week) is that you have to listen to your body, and you have to be happy with how things are going. You had a rough day/night it doesn't mean you are full of suck.. it means life hit you and it hurt, the big picture... you have lost 44 pounds, is one day enough to make you gain back that - heck no so lets mark this as a bump and move on. you are doing so wonderfullly that this one little bump isn't even enough to worry about. 

Thank you everyone. I'm over it. I don't want to go on and on about what had upset me. It's NOT even worth it. Thank you angie and mars and esimnons. Pixi~ Thank you. I think I'm focusing to much on the # and not what I'm feeling hunger wise. I love the 'full of suck thing'! Sometimes we need someone to say....get over it. =) 

When life throws you a curve ball, catch it and throw it back! 

So glad you are feeling a bit better! Onward... and downward! 

Honestly I have to say that when i focus on the numbers I really get down on myself. I have been at this in an almost obsessive manner for 6 months. I have lost a total of 26 pounds. That is about 4 pounds a month or 1 pound a week. When I focus on the numbers it honestly does not feel worth the effort. However, I know that I am worth the effort. this is so much better than a weight gain over the 6 months. I am saving a bit of money now that I am off one of my blood pressure pills. Some people notice that i have lost weight and honestly most don't. That also makes me down a bit. But I notice that I have lost weight. I can feel my hip bones again. I can see dips in my tummy that used to not be there. My face seems less full to me. The tape measaure shows I have shrunk and I am wearing a smaller size. The bottom line is - when I focus on the numbers I feel bad about myself. When I focus on me, I am feeling better about myself. I think the process is the true benefit of this journey not the scale numbers even though they are quantifiable. Try not to focus on the numbers. They suck :) 

Sounds like "just one of those days" they are gong to happen. You just have to keep reminding yourself of how far you have come. It is so good to set goals...but you have to leave a little room for lee way or else that is all you focus on. If your goal is to lose 10 ponds a month, and you only lost 8 or whatever...8 is still a great loss...celebrate on ANY success, accept the "lacking" and try to make tomorrow a better day. 

Thank you all for your posts! I'm sooo over the pity party. Thank you Jennifer! You are so right with what you posted. Thank you Esimnons for your post as well! I also hate when no one seems to notice my weight loss. It messes with your head. I bet people DO notice though. Women HATE saying nice stuff when they secretly wish it was them who lost the weight. Keep focusing on YOU! THAT is what this is all about!