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Ate horribly - 50% of calories consumed were from fat - eeewwww! This is not going to get me into a smaller size. I am actually not disgusted with myself over the whole ordeal though. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. I mean, I want to be accountable to my goals and my diet but I also know that stress is counterproductive.
I aim to refocus my diet on healthy food choices and moderation beginning again tomorrow. This week was an emotional one.
My body has changed. I think my waist is slimming back down and my legs are feeling (and I think looking) stronger again. I am trying to give myself permission to not be so perfect but it is hard. I see these women walking around the gym with their tight legs and bodies and it makes me want to hide my still jiggling baby belly. I don't want to do certain exercises because I know that others will see me. I am afraid that they will only see me as I am now and not what I could be or what I have been. In fact, that is all that I can expect them to see but, oh, that hurts. I am soft and have cellulite. My muscles are weak and my weight is up. The more I think about it, the more I want to hide it.
But the longer I wallow in this nastiness, the longer I will be nasty - in body and in mind. The harder I work now, the sooner I'll see the results.
I can do one workout at a time! One day at a time! One calorie down at a time!
I love you, Tiffany
Diet Calendar Entries for 16 January 2011:
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2426 kcal
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Fat: 131.90g | Prot: 89.04g | Carb: 230.02g.
Breakfast: Fresh Buttery Taste Spread, Roasted Original Potatoes, Plain or Buttermilk Biscuits, Smoked or Cured Ham, Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg. Dinner: garlic sauce papa john's, pizza papa john's. Snacks/Other: hummus basha, pita chips. more...
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2517 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sitting - 1 hour, Housework - 2 hours, breastfeeding - 1 hour, Resting - 12 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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