davidsprincess's Journal, 23 January 2020

Don't feel like the gym today. I tried. My workout lasted as long as the drive here. 20 minutes. Maybe because no one is here but the geriatric crowd and fat Joey. Maybe because I lost my red water bottle. Maybe because I didn't take Sunday off like I promised myself because I wanted to go. But my real fear from being morbidly obese is - what if that's it? What if I never, ever get the desire to go again? What if this is the first day of losing all motivation? And I feel the same way on days I'm hungry and eat more than I'm "supposed" to. What if this is the start of a binge and I regain it all? What if I'm not feeling super hungry and I just want an excuse to eat? This happens at least one time a month and I've been at this for a little while now. That should help me feel a little more at ease...but I still have that fear. Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe when that goes, it all goes.

Diet Calendar Entries for 23 January 2020:
2409 kcal Fat: 78.24g | Prot: 129.63g | Carb: 334.14g.   Breakfast: Master Choice Maple & Brown Sugar Instant Oatmeal, Philadelphia Regular Cream Cheese, Lender's Plain Bagels, Equate High Performance Protein Shake - Chocolate. Lunch: Oreo Oreo Thins, Trader Joe's 4% Cottage Cheese, Great Value Pepper Jack Cheese Slice, Carl Buddig Corned Beef, Ole Extreme Wellness High Fiber Low Carb Tortillas, Butterscotch or Caramel Topping, Great Value Pineapple Chunks, Granny Smith Apples, Grapes. Dinner: Cauliflower , Snyder's of Hanover Mini Pretzels, Great Value Peanut Butter, Chillycow Mocha Espresso Swirl, Kirkland Signature Boneless Skinless Chicken Thighs. Snacks/Other: Haribo Twin Snakes, Trader Joe's 4% Cottage Cheese, Great Value Saltine Crackers, Blue Diamond Bold Salt 'n Vinegar Almonds, Lay's Oven Baked Original (Package), Trader Joe's Jumbo Cinnamon Sweet Roll with Vanilla Icing. more...
2168 kcal Activities & Exercise: Weight Training (moderate) - 15 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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It isn't about motivation, it's about discipline. Discipline never fades. 
23 Jan 20 by member: mpohland2783
mpohland- the discipline faded today........ right before my biceps. 💪🏼 
23 Jan 20 by member: davidsprincess
Don’t loose motivation, you can get through it , I row everyday, and once a while I blow it off , 
23 Jan 20 by member: G-factor
I know, G-factor. I'm fine. I just need a day. I'll be back at it tomorrow or Saturday.  
23 Jan 20 by member: davidsprincess
It’s OK to take a break. Be gentle with yourself and patient. We all have those days where you need a break. Listen to your body ,you’re doing awesome. Stay motivated and keep moving forward. Slow and steady wins the race. Take it one day at a time. You can do it!! You are too strong to let yourself falter. It was just a moment & tomorrow’s a new day! 🍀🌈👍 
23 Jan 20 by member: damablack13
Thank you, LZenn! You are someone who does so amazingly well that I know that's great advice. Thanks damablack.  
23 Jan 20 by member: davidsprincess
We all have a little box inside of ourselves filled with motivations that work for us. I have days when I'm hurting and have to do the "easy stuff", which isn't a motivation for me (I want to get to the tough stuff). My motivator is: if I don't do this today...I won't EVER get to the stuff I want to get to. Works every time. Who knows what today was for you? You still have that fear inside of backsliding. You are so confident...that little fear, once a month or a blue moon....may be one of your motivations. Lock it back in the box and tomorrow is another day. Thanks for your honesty. :0) 
23 Jan 20 by member: binkytexas
My doctor suggested I join a gym because my thigh muscles are really weak. I also have been thinking that using some weights might help my flabby arms as I am losing weight. But every time I've joined a gym before I've gone for 2 or 3 months at the most and then get tired of it. But I may try the little gym in the neighborhood if I can pay month to month. I remember the trainers in the gym always said not to do weights every day, to take a break of a day in between. Is that still recommended? 
23 Jan 20 by member: Fritzy 22
I always say this but the fact that you're posting about it instead of just disappearing is huge. When I would quit in the past, I would drop it all. Fat secret journaling helps so much. You're good, love. <3 
23 Jan 20 by member: -Diablo
I’m sure you are going to be fine, we all have our days. Btw I love the nicknames you have assigned people! Lol 😂 I do the same thing! 😂 
24 Jan 20 by member: Kennyn27
It’s ok. Feels to me like you’re a Christian and believe. Ever go to church and think... “wow I didn’t get anything out of that message” and you start all those questions about beliefs and faith etc? Like you’re lost? I have. Then I think we’ll, todays message must have been for someone else. I’m still the same I still believe. Life can be like that in many ways, gym etc. Take minute, you know why you’re here. Rest, return. HIS yoke is easy.  
24 Jan 20 by member: 66Pack
Thanks Fritzy Binky Diablo (hate when you call me love) kennyn and 60 pack. Yes fritzy -rest is good. I don't think every other day to rest is needed but I think if I really dislike it and that's all I could force myself, I would make a little progress still. 60pack- I do that a lot. Thanks for the advice. ❤️  
24 Jan 20 by member: davidsprincess
I just started a mini-break on Wednesday. My left elbow and both shoulders have been hurting and I was able to power through Tuesday and didn’t feel like I hurt anything. Went Wednesday and the pain in my elbow was so bad I just couldn’t do it. So I quit after 15 minutes and said fine. I’ll stop. Yesterday I didn’t go. Not even my 3 miles because I had to go fix my mom’s car that died. Today I may try going and lifting light weights just to stretch out the tendons and give the muscles some activity. My goal is to resume full on Monday. But I’m not going to obsess over it. Investing time and effort in the gym is like making a deposit in your life bank every day. Over time you accumulate “savings” and every now and then it’s ok to make a little withdrawal and take a mini vacation. Just so long as it’s not a permanent one 😂. You’re good, girl 👊🏻 
24 Jan 20 by member: GardenOfHeeden
It is always best to approach a change in way of eating and exercise at a slow pace. It is a lifestyle you are committing to in the long run. Add one change at a time that you can commit to. I have the eating down pat, morning 30 minutes of stretches/yoga and then 30 minutes on the stationary bike. It is the gym that is the most challenging for me to commit to long term. I am at two days... about an hour each visit When I am sure I can commit to 3... then I will add another day and so on... It is also good to change your mindset. Are you doing this to change your body type, get strong, lose weight.... or because you enjoy it. Many of the changes I have made I do because I know it is good for me and no other reason. Some foods I eat, may not be my favorite but they are nutrient dense and good for my health. You will figure this out !  
24 Jan 20 by member: crazycatchick
She is trying to figure out why she didn't feel like exercising and slightly worried that these feelings could precede regression. She knows what she is doing. 
24 Jan 20 by member: -Diablo
all of those fears are real. and im so sorry you're feeling that way. being haunted by the fear of obesity is real enough to cause the deaths of thousands of individuals worldwide. you are not alone. I cant make those fears poof away. its something you may struggle with your whole life, but I want you to know two encouraging things: 1. healthy isnt skinny. health is a mindset of self care and self maintenance to operate efficiently and to enjoy life rather than just survive it 2. i think it really encouraging that while you only went for a little bit, you still went! sometimes "going to the gym" can literally be setting foot in the building and walking out because youre doing more for your health than a lot of people are with that act alone. be kind to yourself. one bad day wont break your healthy lifestyle just like one good meal doesnt fix an unhealthy lifestyle. i believe in you! keep going!  
24 Jan 20 by member: JigglyPuff2Tuff
PS... you may just be hitting that wall of boredom. Like many do with dieting and an exercise plan. Maybe try adding in some other things like wall climbing, yoga, challenge courses. You have so much flexibility in your diet and allow yourself to eat whatever you want. Maybe being more flexible in your exercise routine might change it up for awhile. I know you will figure this out...  
24 Jan 20 by member: crazycatchick
I had another user spamming it on my cake pic. No respect. 
24 Jan 20 by member: -Diablo
How many times have we all lost and regained the same wt over and over? Keeping it off is just as hard. The idea I need to count calories and "diet" the rest of my life because that's what it's gonna take.... Bums me out to be in the "group" with wt issues. Lucky me, I must have gotten a bunch of those fat genes. So many other people never have a wt problem and have no idea what it's like to be fat. Including my doctor. It sucks. /le sigh 
24 Jan 20 by member: Jipper500
Thanks crazy! Thanks jiggly! Thank you, jheeden! Maybe I'll go today. Maybe not. But whatever I decide, I'm sure it will be fine. At 5 a.m. I turned off my alarm and decided to stay in bed. it's 7:40 and probably the latest I've slept in ages. It was fun.  
24 Jan 20 by member: davidsprincess

     
 

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