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I read back over my journals and see that I have been optimistic multiple times since the beginning of the year. I think the call of the wine is my biggest downfall. Empty although tasty calories, it is all about control, I have been out of control for months.
I need the resolve I had when I took off 85 lbs in 2010, I have kept most of it off but can easily see that I can be back over 200 lbs quickly. Then begins the spiral of oh well I never could keep weight off so why bother.
I know how it feels to weigh 160, I need to get back there and less, it is wonderful to go into a store, grab something off the shelf (not in Plus size) and it fits and shocking LOOKS GOOD!
It took me months to realize that I did not have to go straight to the plus sizes area. This is all so mental, I have punished myself for years over stupid things.
SELF DEFEATING BEHAVIORS, I like being a winner, I like the reaction of people who haven't seen me in years freaking out because I don't even look the same. (Ex-Husband was afraid I had Cancer, well in a way I did have Cancer, your lousy self was my cancer!)
Motivation, Motivation, Motivation! Defeat the wine beast, increase movement, more water!
Diet Calendar Entries for 02 April 2013:
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1175 kcal
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Fat: 28.73g | Prot: 104.18g | Carb: 143.17g.
Breakfast: Starbucks Bold Pick of the Day (Venti), Bananas, Starbucks Spinach Feta Egg White Wrap. Lunch: Low Fat Cottage Cheese, Kroger Spicy Brown Mustard, Grapefruit (Pink and Red), Oroweat Multigrain Sandwich Thins, Oscar Mayer 95% Fat Free Smoked Turkey Breast & White Turkey. Dinner: Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast Tenders, Balsamic Breeze Vinaigrette Dressing Salad Spritzers, Baby Roma Tomatoes, Steamfresh Mixed Vegetables, Vitamin Water Zero Revitalize Green Tea. Snacks/Other: Smoked Mozarella and Articoke with garlic sausage, Carbmaster Strawberry Pomegranate Yogurt, Kirkland Signature Fish Oil. more...
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2326 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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