davidsprincess's Journal, 24 October 2020

Slowly my diet has turned into a bunch of rules for me to follow and I hate it. I need to get back to basics where I learn to enjoy food and count the calories. Instead I am eating tuna on a 50 calorie wrap almost every day and cottage cheese and egg beaters- I have like 5 things that I am eating repeatedly to try to "be good" and I don't know when that mindset snuck back in or if it really never left. But then I tire of it and next thing I know I am eating peanut butter on graham crackers because 90 calories tuna pouches really suck by day 4. So I went back to my diet calendar. I am so thankful that I have tracked every bite for so long. The last month that I felt I made great progress was probably August 2019- betcha thought I was going to say something in 2020 but it has been awhile. And so while I am still kicking ass at the gym- my eating sucks. In that month of progress- it was no tuna pouches. It was cotton candy and casseroles and spaghetti and normal shit and I just wrote it down and carried on and lost a lot of weight so fuck the Halo Top- back to the Ben n Jerry's and the calories of normal foods and not crap. My bio is like I am a big,fat hypocrite. Well not anymore. Normally when I eat 3000 or more calories- I fill out my diet calendar with low calorie grossness to see what I need to eat to get back to the right deficit- why did I start doing that? If I ate normal food- i wouldn't be in that cycle of feeling deprived. On a brighter note- I didn't gain anything so for the first time ever I am not starting from square one. Here's to more gains in the gym and losses on my waist. Now what's for breakfast? I'm thinking pancakes and bacon. 💗🤸🏻‍♀️💪🏻

Diet Calendar Entries for 24 October 2020:
1414 kcal Fat: 38.46g | Prot: 93.55g | Carb: 171.95g.   Breakfast: Toasted White Bread. Lunch: Oscar Mayer Maple Bacon, Equate High Performance Protein Shake - Chocolate, ConAgra Foods Egg Beaters, Log Cabin Maple Syrup, Vegetable Oil, Bisquick Pancake Mix. Dinner: The Snack Factory Pretzel Crisps - Original, Trader Joe's 4% Cottage Cheese, Ham Salad Spread, Sunbeam Large White Bread. Snacks/Other: Snyder's of Hanover Pretzel Rods, Great Value Light Greek Nonfat Yogurt. more...
2524 kcal Activities & Exercise: Shopping - 15 minutes, Housework - 1 hour and 20 minutes, Weight Training (moderate) - 40 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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I know- wtf- 40+ years of diet rules is a hard habit to break. Feed me!!!! And write back, dude. You are a terrible penpal. I have the need for immediate responses.  
24 Oct 20 by member: davidsprincess
Fizzy waters... Makes me want to belch just typing it.  
24 Oct 20 by member: davidsprincess
I love this post so much! the diet that I was on before wanted me to be on a 1200calorie limit a day, without paying respect to balance. that limit was too low for what I burn everyday! I still eat my heart out on veggies and my fav Buffalo dip, Ben and jerrys. and other noms, but now I get a better idea and feeling of balance and feeling better about myself! glad I'm not alone :) 
24 Oct 20 by member: catiebug16
DP I can totally relate. Once my weight stopped dropping around 185 I also began to do the “tuna pouches” and other low low cal foods like celery sticks with jalapeño mustard. 🤦‍♀️ Typically around day 3-4 I was miserable and hungry. 😩 I’ve accepted that with my current body and with the extra skin (legs, back, thighs) my ideal weight may be just around 180. Mentally I want to be under 175 but I refuse to obsess, nope not going back to that. I eat, I eat well. I eat foods that nourish me and I find tasty just within my budget. It’s hard 😭 Especially now that I’m pretty much immobile... But imma do what I gotta do... I think you are doing great, keep lifting and body comping; you are strong AF, sexy as hell. You got this and will forever weigh less than your hubby...  
24 Oct 20 by member: Lowkeylife
Thanks for your ingenuity, DP! Restrictive eating is the worst I can do for my self. After a couple of days, I revolt and eat any greasy snack or carb-loaded stuff I can find at home! I know I'm no role model, I am not making any progress, but I look good enough in my very-own opinion, and I'm maintaining, which is difficult on its own... All this just to tell you that I feel you, friend! 
24 Oct 20 by member: EvaSieteTres
Welcome back to the land of the living! It’s weird how we learn what works but still slide into unsustainable actions. Human nature to create change I guess. 
24 Oct 20 by member: TomLong
I rarely look at people’s food logs. All I can say is I’m glad you came to your senses. Enjoy that bacon and pancakes! ❤️☕️ 
24 Oct 20 by member: wifey9707
great post 
24 Oct 20 by member: choochoo2
Great revelation DP...that's why for me too logging EVERYTHING works....there is no bad stuff, just different calorie densities, macro percentages and personal satisfaction that need to be balanced throughout the weeks, months and years. Hope you see a nice trend line going forward!! 
24 Oct 20 by member: Steven Lloyd
thank you for the brutal honesty. I'm with you. if I make hard and fast rules my brain rebels. awesome read.  
24 Oct 20 by member: one.point.O
Food should satisfy hunger not leave you wanting. Eat the bacon - dump the pancakes. Carbs will make you hungry for more. Keto!  
24 Oct 20 by member: jasonmiller1
Keto sucks- sorry Jason... I can't restrict carbs...Kudos to anyone who can or would want to. The whole point of the post is to not do that. 🧁💗 
24 Oct 20 by member: davidsprincess
Yes! Dump the pancakes right on my plate please! 😂🚫 🔑 toe 
24 Oct 20 by member: wifey9707
Bam. You got to it before me DP. Begone carb deprivers. 👋👋👋👋 
24 Oct 20 by member: wifey9707
Thanks, friends. Looking forward to a downward trend instead of a straight line! ↘ 
24 Oct 20 by member: davidsprincess
Thanks for sharing. My high carb low fat experiment was a failure, because eating what I wanted (in moderation), the fat still tends to be higher than it should be for a moderately low fat diet. The "rules" were creeping in again and making me feel like I'd failed even though I've lost weight thanks to the deficit. I'll still experiment but try not to let them become rules. 
24 Oct 20 by member: LaughingChevre
One last thing, they don’t get my kudos. I can’t support such insanity. Now where’s the pancakes????? Oh, you ate them. Great job, or is that great food? 😂 
24 Oct 20 by member: wifey9707
I've tried soooo many different diets and pills and stupid crap to lose weight. And while they worked initially it's not sustainable or even something that I wanted to do long term. The thing that has helped me lose weight is counting calories. When people ask me what I eat I tell them everything, they think I eat a very restrictive diet. I eat everything I just count calories. I eat carbs, I eat sugar, I eat salty snacks. I just try to make sure I stay with in my calories... except on Fridays when calories don't count 😂😂😂 
24 Oct 20 by member: lettygaylor
losing weight on steak fried shrimp and even bread pudding the diet mental threw that out the window set my calories and that's it 
24 Oct 20 by member: mountainman2
Yes, Letty!! And MM! Petra, I'd eat the rice cakes and next thing ya know, I'm using them as a peanut butter holder. 😜 
24 Oct 20 by member: davidsprincess

     
 

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