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It is amazing what my mind has done for so many years and not come up with "healthy".
When the doctor told me years ago that I had fatty liver and suggested altering my diet, etc., I told myself, "I'm not that heavy! How does he know my liver is fatty or not?". I dismissed it.
When the doctor told me my cholesterol and triglycerides were too high and I needed to change my diet, I told myself, "Ahhh...that's what pills are for! Why change my diet when I can take a little pill once a day?".
When my jeans were too tight, I started wearing sweatpants. I told myself, "It's cold in Alaska! Sweatpants are practical!"
When I got rid of the full length mirrors in the house, I told myself, "Those cheap mirrors are always distorted. That isn't what I really look like!".
When my chin started looking double, I told myself, "Ahh...bad genes! You are starting to look like your mother!" and quickly started wearing turtlenecks or mock turtle necks to hide it.
When I started looking ONLY at my eyes when I was putting on mascara; only at my brows when I was shaping them; only at my teeth when I was brushing them; only at my hair when I was doing it...I told myself, "Why look at your whole face when you're only dealing with part of it?".
When I refused to let anyone take a picture of me, that should have told me that I needed to do something about my weight. Instead, I just told myself, "Who needs a picture of me anyway? There is nothing special about me to commemorate!" rather than being honest with myself about WHY I didn't like to see myself in photos.
When a new doctor asked me how I felt about having gastric bypass, I told myself, "What? Me?".
Being honest with yourself is a MUST! I think I've finally learned that!
Diet Calendar Entry for 19 February 2018:
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936 kcal
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Fat: 52.35g | Prot: 73.15g | Carb: 45.74g.
Lunch: Skinless Chicken Breast. Dinner: Hidden Valley Ranch Salad Dressing, Hidden Valley Ranch Salad Dressing, Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Lettuce, Lettuce, Tomatoes, Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Glucerna Rich Chocolate Shake, Popsicle (Sugar Free), Popsicle (Sugar Free). more...
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