Multiplicity1's Journal, 28 March 2010

Aww... *hugs* Don't put yourself down like that! You've came a long way since you've started. It's a struggle, believe I know how you're feeling, but in the end it's totally worth it!! Hang in there!!! “HOW YOU THINK IS EVERYTHING. Always be positive. Think success, not failure. Beware of a negative environment.” ~Investors Business Daily (IBD) “The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.” ~M. Scott Peck When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. 

You have to lose weight for no one but yourself. Sometimes lots of people comment, other days they don't. It doesn't make you or your weight loss less important. Losing weight is hard, being fat is hard, you have to pick your hard. Give yourself cheat meal once and while if it will help keep you on track and going. Losing weight will help you look and feel better about yourself. It will help you live a longer life and be able to enjoy that life more. I have come to term with the fact that I will always have to watch what I eat and exercise. It's not easy, but you have to make the decision that you are worth it. So dig in your heals and keep going. You can do it. 

No, you cannot magically reach your goal weight :) Sorry, THIS, like everything in life is a lot more about the journey than the destination. Also, reaching your goal weight is not the end of watching what you eat. You must continue healthy habits for life if you want to keep the weight off. Remember, old habits = old body. No need to do everything at once :) I truly believe in making small changes one at a time and really getting comfortable with the habit before you start working on a new one. I think a lot of people get frustrated because they try to do too much. It is not necessary. It's more important to be comfortable and stick with it for the long haul. Try not to pressure yourself too much :) You are trying very hard to get healthy and fit and you're doing a wonderful thing for yourself. This alone should make you proud and happy- weight loss or no :) 

Hi Andrea, I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling, it was just a few days ago I felt the same way...I was reaching out and wanted to quit and ok I was whinning..lol. A good friend told me to pull my panties up and stop sniffing..this isnt easy and I have a life time to go. I decided then and there enough of the feeling sorry for myself my eating habits put me in this mess and my new eating habits will take me out. I still dont know if I have my numbers right but I know the way I am eating is healthy and for my diatbetes its the best way to go. You are not alone friend, I am here, we are all here to support you. You are strong and you can do this, now pull up those panties and get at it...with luv Lenny 

I'm sorry I missed your journal yesterday. I usually see your new ones but I missed that one. Never feel like you are not important or that we don't care. I know the feeling about just wanting to give up. I agree with Suzi that a cheat meal every once in a while can be good for you. Just don't have the all or nothing mentality about it. I hope you are feeling better now than you were earlier. **HUGZ** 

Rebecca thanks for the support. Appreciate the hugz. I am feeling better. I am usually doing well but my depression sometimes catches up w/me for a bit. Thanks everyone for your comments. They were all helpful. I will stop whining and put my big girl panties on now and move forward.  

Andrea,I know how you feel.Very few people comment on my journal but I can't read anything into it except they are so busy trying to succeed like we all are that there isn't always time to read everything.I know I don't,I should but I don't.It doesn't mean I don't care.You are doing great just being here and that means a lot.I care about everything on this site and I care about my buddies and you are one of them,so please don't beat up are yourself.I'll send you a extra hug okay!You're whining you're just letting your feelings be heard and thats success too.  

left the not out on that sentence 

Thanks winddancer! 

*ninja hug* I'm sorry i missed it too! I tend to be so busy on the weekends i barely get on here. I know that feeling, the why-does-it-have-to-be-so-hard-all-the-frickin-time feeling. Seems like alot of work for little pay off but it does happen...just not as fast as we would like sometimes. I'm glad your feeling better today <3 drop me a line if you ever need to chat :) 

Hey hon. Please take comfort that you are not the only one to feel these emotions. We have all had our trying times and uncertainties. I know that the past few weeks w/ no losses has been quite stressful to me. But I do know that no matter long it takes, it will happen. You shouldnt have to feel deprived. I would recommend that you try some different recipes. Mix things up a bit, try new things. And moving to OWL might be all you need to jump start your losses again. Best of luck hon. We are all here for you.  

Oh girl, I'm sure you can tell by the outpouring above that not only do people care, but most of us have felt EXACTLY like you do at the moment at one point or another. There are a lot of great pieces of insight here. Allow yourself to cheat once in a while. I used to cheat once per week and that seemed to help. By allowing it, you're not making anything completely off limits, just limiting how much or how often you can have something. I also agree with the part about not letting it be an all or nothing. That's how I've often been in the past and I'm trying desperately not to be that way now. I had a massive binge day last week - ate more than double my daily goal AND didn't work out at all that day. Yep, I blew it, big time. But I felt really proud of myself when the following day I decided to work out regardless and to get on track with food. I wasn't perfect, wasn't even close. Because the next time I eat something I know I shouldn't have, I'm hoping to not let it be an excuse for the rest of the day. I think that "allowed" me to binge. I told myself I'd already blown it, why not eat everything I thought I'd been missing for weeks? Stupid, set me back 2 1/2 days of hard workouts, but it was one day and it was over. We probably ALL do that. You wouldn't put down a friend and beat her up if she'd done that, or call her a loser and tell her she didn't have what it takes, right? So we certainly shouldn't have that kind of internal dialogue with ourselves. Sometimes when I tune in to what I'm saying to myself, I'm shocked! I would NEVER think of or treat another person like that, ever. And of course Kate is right that old habits = old body. Good one to remember. It IS a journey and it is definitely NOT easy. But is it worth it? You bet it is! Just ask all those that care about you if they think any and all effort is worth saving you. And maybe a bit more brutal, but nonetheless very valuable piece of advice found above - pick your hard. Yes, losing weight is hard. Very hard. But staying fat is hard, too. The comments, the self-image, self-esteem, the looks from unsympathetic strangers, the self-hatred when you've outgrown yet another size, the condemnation from doctors you feel when you get on their scale and they lecture you on being fat. Like you don't already know everything they say to you and feel it....Yep, like Suzi said, pick your hard. We're all here for you and I could certainly use another buddy.