madaboutmoose's Journal, 27 October 2011

Beginning of day 4 of 28-42 days of Dr. Kruse's Leptin Reset.

Weight this morning was 206.4 ... down again. Amazing since according to my calculations I consumed over 2000 calories yesterday. Go figure. Maybe my buddies were right. Maybe I did have too large a calorie deficit which was causing a stall in my weight loss? Time will tell.

I opted to skip Pilates today and slept an extra 30 minutes. I've been waking A LOT at night. Darn hot flashes. I was super tired yesterday evening. Even fell asleep in the chair while watching a bad movie!!

I'm dragging a bit ... some of that could be due to the leptin reset. I'm sure once I get going I'll be fine. I have a busy enough day ahead with three visits on the calendar. Before I know it it will be time to go home.

I NEED a good travel coffee mug!!! I continually have problems with the coffee dribbling on my clothes in the morning. Didn't dribble all the way in until just before dropping hubby off and SPLAT ... all over the front of my yellow shirt!!! Thank goodness I have a jacket on I can cover the damage with. Otherwise I'd be perusing Wal-Mart to see if I could find a replacement shirt. Embarrassing!!! Maybe I'll break down and buy a new cup from Starbucks ... this dollar store variety just isn't working for me!! ARGH!!!!

I say a former client yesterday who I know would be my client again if I offered. I am thinking about seeing a few private clients ... as a way to build my practice outside of my "real" job. Now ... I have to get serious about malpractice insurance. Perhaps that is the motivation I need to get my rear in gear in that regard.

I do indeed like myself. I am kind to myself. I take care of myself. I love my body and embrace all her imperfections. I am an expert in my field. People pay me for my expertise. I am organized and efficient. I manage our finances well. Our wood shed is full. We have funds saved for a vacation in Mexico in February 2012. Our dental needs are met. I plan well and follow through. I am a successful businesswoman and entrepreneur. I listen carefully to my body's hunger cues and nourish my body so that I efficiently shed excess pounds and body fat.

As this day begins ... I am grateful.

1. I am grateful for colleagues I can vent with.

2. I am grateful for cold air when I am having a hot flash.

3. I am grateful for inching closer to the weekend.

4. I am grateful for flannel sheets.

5. I am grateful for music.

Looks like I have a little bit of time to get some paperwork done this morning before my visits begin. I am ever mindful of the need I have to practice kindness to myself, remaining mindful that the joy is truly in the journey, and remembering that "failures" are simply opportunties to learn something and move towards goals. I do find myself more "at ease" with this bigger body ... and perhaps only because I am so darn tired ... I spend less time worrying about "when" I'll be back at 180!! LOL!! There may be something good about being tired!! I hope you all have a good day. Take care of yourselves, continue to work on embracing yourselves ... none of us is perfect, we all struggle with something ... and we are STILL worth it!!!

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1711 kcal

Fat: 98.21g | Prot: 152.82g | Carb: 52.53g.   Breakfast: Natural Sausage, shredded cheese, eggs, coconut oil. Lunch: Kosher Dill Sandwich Slices Pickles, chicken breast meat, Cottage Cheese. Dinner: spaghetti squash, spaghetti sauce with meat. more...

2674 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours. more...