EggBeater42's Journal, 08 January 2023

The bads, turned 44😏, and still quite sad most of the time without really knowing why. In 2023, my goals are to work out every other day and find daily joy in small things.  

keep up the great work.🦾💪👍 

👍nice work eggbeater ! 

You've made some very good progress in some important areas; you have much to be proud of. Finding joy in the small things is a great beginning, as is learning to love yourself. I wish you peace and love and joy in 2023; you are worthy of it and you deserve it. 💚💛💜 

be proud of yourself  

Great accomplishments! 

Day 447...lierally pulled the car over once it came to me that I did the math wrong... My proudest accomplishment!  

Thank you all for your kind support, just skimmed the cooments for now 

Haha I thought something didn't add up but I wasn't going to say anything That's awesome! 

Inspiring ! 

That's absolutley Awesome!! Good on you! 

you are looking great! 

Wow! What an accomplishment! 

Have you considered talking to your doctor about your sadness? This time of year, SADD is quite common, and you could have a chemical imbalance in your brain that causes depression (also very common). 

Sadness,as in Depression? Are you taking at k east 5,000iu of Vitamin D3 supplements every day? It's the Sunlight Vitamin. We tend to not get enough full exposure Sunlight even in the Summer with our modern lifestyles. It might be worth a try. Just a suggestion.  

Forget prescription dope...go to AA for sobriety... There is no such thing g as a "chemical imbalance"... Google it...totally discredited now...but a Hell of a money maker for Big Pharma....most of us are depressed for very specific reasons..fix the issue...the depression will stop.. Diet and exercise and sobriety will fix most everything... All drugs are a dead end...AA will help you stop drinking and more importantly STAY STOPPED... Tons of meetings on line and in person too.  

Congratulations on sobriety!!!! 

Dianne: For me, Rxs work adjusted to eliminate unwanted side effects. If it works, it works. // But, your advice is good and worth doing/trying. For me, low-carb is easier to maintain. 

Thank you everyone for your support. As for the depression, it has been a part of me for very long. I write about it here sometimes as an outlet but also hope that it helps others somehow not feel alone. My quitting drinking was a way to beat the depression and lose weight. More than a year later, I can tell you that my set point weight only changed by one pound. I used to be 143 lbs no matter what I did. Now, that number is 142 lbs. I gain or lose but always go back to my set weight within the limits of my lifestyle. I have tried a few therapists but the advice has always been to cut contact with my family (long and boring story). Anyhow, I finally did that last August but the guilt is borderline unbearable. I am scared of prescription drugs as I have quite an addictive personality so that is one thing that I haven't tried. I will try the vitamin D suggestion. Thank you for that advise. The other reason for my depression is my job, which is to do with cancer patients. You can imagine what that is like, I am sure. The pay is good and I have been doing it for so long, I cannot imagine doing anything else. But the sorrow is daily and I don't know how to numb it sometimes. I hope that I am not whining. I am working on sticking to things, sobriety, regular exercise, changing my eating habits (but not dieting). I am a forever work in progress. I mean to be honest but also hope to inspire through sharing some struggles. Thank you all. Your comments mean a lot to me.  

I went No Contact with my mother six years ago. Best thing I ever did for myself. My dad decided to punish me for protecting myself from her so he hasn’t spoken to me in 3.5 years, that sunk me into the worst depression of my life. Family dynamics are so hard. I’m glad you’ve found what works for you.