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OK....I am not so enthused about changing my life, but I almost think it is better this way. Instead of starting out on a high about a new life, new eating, new diet etc, I am just kind of starting to get to it. It involves routines, and I have never managed that well. I'm doing tapping to try to reframe the issue of cooking and doing dishes in my mind. It's helping a little.
Physically, I am feeling tired still. But that's one of the biggest reasons that I started to change my nutritional diet back to Atkins. It is so much healthier. I am not doubting whether or not Atkins is right or not anymore, It is. It seems to be easier to me to doubt whether it is really normal to eat Atkins style or not. I don't know if it is or isn't normal, but I know that it is the healthiest diet that I have ever tried. Carbs fuck with me. I don't like that reality so I guess its easier when I am trying to avoid that, to start criticizing how "severe" atkins is, when in reality it isn't. The other way that I was eating was severe! It's not good or normal to always eat fast food, to not cook meals, to buy precooked meals. My food is better anyway that anything taht I can buy in a fast food joint or already prepared from the grocery store.
I also stood back a little and tried to not be so defensive about cooking with Eduardo. He's really got it right. It is nuts to eat out all the time. I don't blame him. He's not addicted to carbs and sugar etc, so to expect that he would not be bothered by eating that way all the time and not having regular meals each day is a bit unrealistic. So I decided to take his craziness about having cooked meals as an added incentive to reasons why cooking meals is a good thing and something that I want to do for myself and for him.
For now, I am finding that I have a little more energy, but my poor beaten down body gets tired quickly. I am resting more in the afternoon. I have to get up early in the morning in order to get a good days work in too, because by 2 p.m. I am pretty wiped out and I need t rest. For now, that is what I have to do. I hope that it will change as I get healthier and weight less so that my little frame doesn't have to keep working so hard just to walk and carry all this extra weight.
For now, this is good night from one exhausted and tired lady.
Diet Calendar Entry for 02 January 2014:
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1423 kcal
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Fat: 106.27g | Prot: 87.44g | Carb: 30.86g.
Breakfast: Boar's Head London Broil Cap-off Top Round Oven Roasted Beef, Cheddar Cheese, Egg. Lunch: Cream of Mushroom Soup/Atkins. Dinner: Broccoli Flower Clusters, Ham (Whole, Cured, Roasted). Snacks/Other: Flourless Cake Roll (LemonCurd), Provolone Cheese, Oat Fiber Bread, Cream of Mushroom Soup/Atkins. more...
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