Scoldy's Journal, 28 October 2010

I hate diets and effects of yo yo, which is an integral part thereof. The only thing that keeps love, is the weight???. If I weigh more nobody likes me(the man I loved). Why men are so focused over how much you weigh. Magazines constantly show women who have extreme superfit and superslim bodies. How on earth is expected to make dinner without even to try it, to train for an hour every day and continue to do so till the end of your live. It is inhuman all of this is in the name of love of the standards that must be constantly chased and covered. When I'm with 17 BMI(perfect victoria secret body mass) did not feel beautiful I feel tormented, others only see me beautiful, but what I see are system schedules calories and exercise. It is painful to live like that. This is the last time in which will try to remove these four kilograms so detrimental to my relationship if I fail to keep them to opt out of this. This battle depresses me a yo yo comes from bindge eating that I do for a reward, while I become ill. This is my personal hell.

Diet Calendar Entry for 28 October 2010:
792 kcal Fat: 17.94g | Prot: 35.26g | Carb: 133.68g.   Breakfast: radish, scallion, cucumber, lettuce. Lunch: granny smith, Atlantic mackerel. Dinner: granny smith, granny smith. Snacks/Other: coffee, milk. more...

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The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.  
28 Oct 10 by member: thecoach
I don't know much about your situation, so forgive me if my comments miss the mark. Men *are* visual, but there are men who love and appreciate many varieties of that visual. I was loved when I was fifty pounds heavier. One told me that I looked like the Venus DeMilo. Most of them told me how beautiful I was and I really do believe they felt that way. Many of my friends who are even heavier have amazing and loving relationships (and a healthy sex life). My boyfriend can't tell the difference (so he claims) over about fifteen pounds. If your love is so obsessed about a couple of pounds to the point that you have to be unhealthy to be with him, I think you will find many other men who are more deserving who will be perfectly happy to take you at a weight that's happy and healthy for you! 
28 Oct 10 by member: xalepos
I understand how you feel. I feel the same often, not because of a man but because of how I see myself and how I would want to look like. When I look at your numbers (height/weight) I know you are super slim and beautiful. But what's in our head is different... Don't forget you are not just a body, you are a person. You are more than a number on the scale. If this man can only love you at 58 kgs, are you ready to live the rest of your life in hell? Is he so perfect that you have to torture yourself to be "perfect" too? With the help of my FS buddies, I slowly learned to accept myself. I hope you can love yourself too, for who you are. That doesn't mean to let yourself go and indulge. It's just about being self confident and not a prisoner of the numbers. Take care! 
28 Oct 10 by member: jessyline

     
 

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