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For some reason i keep this feeling in my head that i can't change myself anymore... let me explain b/c that doesn't make sense...
it felt easier before... now the weight loss thing seems impossible... i guess i feel like my weigh in on friday will be another gain. why do i feel this way? why does it feel so darn hard? i'm happy with any loss regardless of how small b/c i know its important to have steady loss vs a large fast loss then a large fast gain. i don't know.. i guess before i felt like it was melting off.. i was always confident i'd have a loss and usually did except for my TOM weeks. now even though i'm still working out practically every day, still eating well, just feels hard hard hard. Maybe i should just settle for this weight so that i don't get so dissapointed.
Forgive me, i'm rambling the thoughts that are in my head. Sometimes i can make sense of things when i see the words. not working. but i tried, right? hmm..
Diet Calendar Entries for 17 August 2010:
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631 kcal
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Fat: 17.25g | Prot: 44.12g | Carb: 73.80g.
Breakfast: dannon greek, Women's Multivitamin, muscle milk, Water. Lunch: Italian Bread, seared ahi tuna. more...
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I'm kind of in the same place this week. It is my TOM though and I know things are weird, but I feel like I've stalled. 3 days isn't exactly a plateau but when it's been so fast and easy all this time, I guess I'm waiting for it to get hard and impossible like it used to be. I hope the next time you step on the scale it gives you inspiration, and remember it's just math and numbers and you know how they work. :)
17 Aug 10 by member: erin74kr
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Maybe you're at a point where your body composition is truly changing, where your muscle is getting more dense as it gets stronger and causing the weight to go up some? You're doing awesome...take solace in that! You've come a long way and you're going to continue doing well because this is your life now. Maybe look at it as you're changing your body now, not losing weight.
17 Aug 10 by member: melmi20
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ur right.. and def right about the waiting for it to become hard. Because really.. its not... i LOVE being physical and active for the first time in my life.. i love jogging and i love that i CAN jog and i love sweating my b*lls off (haha) and i love things that i never did before.. i love eating healthy and figuring out what works together and still keeping the calories low or atleast getting the most out of what i eat. and i hate that the scale is like my main progress indicator ... i don't measure in for another week or so. i guess if i have any loss this week i'll probably feel a little better.. if not.. i just hope to keep pushing forward and just working towards being the best me i can be... even at 165 i can always progress.. just hard pushing past the old feelings of failure.
17 Aug 10 by member: Naiomy
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@ melmi... i've backed away from hard core weight stuff and tried to get back to my love of jogging and maybe work off another 5 or so before i add more days of my weight training.. maybe this will make me feel a little better.. i was nervous b/c i started feeling more like exercise was forced and not just a feel good thing like it started out as. and it worked.. i'm loving it again. just hate feeling like the work maybe for nothing.
17 Aug 10 by member: Naiomy
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You are doing great. I understand that sometimes it feels like it is a lot harder than it should be. I think that is just our impatience rearing its head. When I am feeling like that I remind myself that this is a forever change so what is the hurry? I am right there with you. Right now I am really focussing on staying active. I try to do everything that I have an opportunity to do just staying busy and active. When I started out, I was really strict with myself. I still hit that inevitable time of slower and slower weightloss. SO ... I decided that what I was doing wasn't going to show on the scale so I had might as well take it a little easy on myself instead of banging my head against the wall. It is about time I start being a little more careful again and see if I can't get that scale to start moving again. I have to say though... my clothes are much loser than they were!
17 Aug 10 by member: datadoll
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@ datadoll.. you're right... the funny thing is i "felt" smaller yesterday... and as soon as i got to work, it was confirmed by like 3 people! it was so weird ... and one was a coworker that sees me every day.. she said "you appear thinner today than last week".. of course i was dealing with a bout of bloat and water retention so i'm sure that had something to do with it.. but still.. i hate that my mind never matches with my body. i don't see a thinner girl..just a smaller version of the old me..
18 Aug 10 by member: Naiomy
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