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I had an emotional, downward spiral last night after my previous journal entry was submitted. The negative voice in me was loud, telling me that I don't love my body, that I'm a liar. Saying that I treat myself like crap and that I'm meant to be fat and ugly. I started swaying my underarm weight in front of a mirror until I cried. Tears of self loathing. Heavy.
I gave into that negative voice yesterday. And I felt horrible and hypocritical for writing yesterday's journal. I slept and dram of negative stuff.
somehow, I woke up earlier than usual and made myself a balanced breakfast. Grapes, toast, egg, coffee .
One day at a time, dear lord. One day at a time.
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 May 2018:
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1585 kcal
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Fat: 46.16g | Prot: 45.91g | Carb: 257.79g.
Breakfast: Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless), Egg, Coffee, Earth Balance Natural Buttery Spread, Trader Joe's Cinnamon Roll Bread. Lunch: Almonds, Brussels Sprouts, The Jackfruit Company BBQ Jackfruit, Baked Sweetpotato (Peel Eaten, Fat Not Added in Cooking). Dinner: Apples, Trader Joe's Pesto Pizza. Snacks/Other: Coffee Bean White Chocolate Latte (Small), Post Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds, Trader Joe's Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk. more...
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