kickingcarbs's Journal, 26 May 2019

So to all my people who have lost a lot of weight, has anyone else done something they have never done since they were a lot bigger and realized you can do it again. here is an example. I was so big I could not ride roller coasters were I lived cause I could not fit in the seat. I was mortified and never even tried again after that even when I started loosing weight cause it would never be enough for me to be willing to even try again because I was so mortified. well yesterday we went through a maze at a museum and the walls were thin like spaces I would have avoided because I knew I would get stuck. P.S. I got stuck several times and it was terrifying and humiliation and triggered my depression so hard. So against my inner fat girl screaming at me and saying my ass was gonna get stuck and I was setting up for failure I told her to shut up and took my husband's hand and went. dont get me wrong there were spaces where it was tight but not to the point I would have to smoosh my body to fit through. I came out on the other side of that maze crying. I couldn't believe that I had lost more weight than I even realized. i have never been so proud of myself. i went a second time just to prove I could. by no means am I not fat anymore but you know what I'm literally almost half the size I used to be and that my friends is impressive as hell to me. Any trolls that try to bring me down please kindly fuck straight off right now. only positive comments cause you know what, i earned this victory and no one but me can take that from me. to all my friends who work hard and get some ass who wants to take your victory from you please please please remember the only one standing in your way is you, the only one who can give yourself this victory is YOU, and the only one who can take that victory from YOU is YOU. have a great day guys and I wish all of you happy tearful proud victories.