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16 January 2014
Well it's been a while since I last bothered with this site to help me count calories. I have since left ASL Interpreting school and instead taken a more holistic path with massage Therapy. I graduated an intensive 6 month program about a month ago and started working at a beautiful spa in my home town. During my classes, a woman came in to give us a 20 minute Belly Dancing class- which was so much fun for all of us, men and women alike. I have since kept telling myself- I'm going to take her class when I graduate. Well now I have graduated and am making a very stress-free living and still I have not signed up for the class... I have, however, contacted the teacher and will be attending starting next month. :)
I realize, however, that a once a week dance class won't make the changes in my weight that I want. In looking back at past posts of mine, I recall the day my doctor told me I'm obese- I wanted to slap the woman. Truly, I have never been overweight. It took a long time for me to accept myself and realize that- boobs contribute to weight. And women aren't meant to be twigs. By nature we are supposed to have rounded hips and healthy breasts, not for sexual attraction but for a healthy pregnancy and the ability to feed our babies. I learned many fascinating things in school regarding the human body and how it is meant to function... and how we torture it with our modern day standards.
So I have been struggling with this beautiful mentality because... well when I look at myself alone, I swear I'm beautiful and if anything all I might want to do is develop more muscle- for the sake of my lousy posture and back pain. But when I look at my boyfriend, who is the weight I should be, and half the width I am... I feel... disproportionate. Over the years, I have come to learn what his "type" is, and although he insists every day that I am perfect, (he's very sweet) I know that I am not within the range of types he has.
And thus I am torn between the reality of life, and my self consciousness- weirdly enough- in comparison to my own boyfriend's body. So I'm back to this site so I can count my calories, as we learned in school that the best way to diet is to calculate the amount of calories you need in order to live your daily life at the weight you are, and then cut back by 500 calories at a time (over the course of several months). And I still struggle between my holistic cravings, and the modern world. Interested in advice, if anyone has any. I'm not sure why or how I managed to do this, I think it was something one of our friends pointed out: Wow, you're smaller than Mary is!
That sort of thing. Then somehow it managed to weasel its little demon into my head and has bothered me ever since.
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16 January 2014
Okay- starting all over! Next month I'll be starting a Belly Dancing class- if you haven't ever taken one before I highly recommend it! It was the best self esteem booster I've ever had and is meant for all women.
Today I am going to get back into counting calories... I'm not very good at it, so my confidence is starting out low, but that's what I'm using this site for so hopefully I can just keep up on logging my meals for the day. I am choosing to go the all science route- fat doesn't make you fat!!! Ever!!! Sugar does. It's the only of the 3 that can be stored as fat, as it is our only natural energy source. However, if you cut sugar out entirely, then protein and lipids can be changed within the body and used as sugar. So I'm not doing gluten free, or carb free. Instead, I am cutting out anything with fructose corn syrup in it- did you know it's processed in the liver the exact same way ALCOHOL is?? (This is why we are seeing children with liver failure, and liver cancer). So, 0 fructose/sucrose (as they are the same exact thing). All natural vegetables and fruit- most of which will be raw. A smoothie a day- I used to juice, before we learned that when you juice, you rip away all of the fiber within the fruit/vegetable you are drinking. Sugar is better processed and burned when taken in with fiber... What's wrong with America and the fast food industry? They took out all the fiber to increase shelf life... Very sad.
0 High Fructose/Sucrose. All NATURAL carbs, with the occasional multi-grain bread.
More all natural fiber- ie pomegranate seeds, veg and fruit skins etcetc.
Chew the food more!
I'm a Massage Therapist, so my workouts are in my daily activities, but I will also be taking a weekly dance class. :)
Weigh-in:
160.0 lb
lost so far:
0 lb
still to go:
30.0 lb
Diet followed N/A
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22 July 2012
This is driving me insane. I have worked out almost every single day the past three weeks and no weight change. I appear to look slimmer and a bit toned but no weight loss... I have kept to my 1500 calorie diet as the doctor said and I should have lost three pounds by now. This is... disheartening... Just want to feel good about myself again.
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23 June 2012
So the doc told me I'm obese today... Considering she isn't that kind of doc in the first place I was not expecting such news. I don't look obese... never was told that before but apparently I should be 125 ish... Sad thing is, I was 125 most of my teen life until I turned 17, and to stay so small all I used to eat were apples, toast, occasional salads and water... That was no fun. SO... Back to it I suppose. I walk about 4.6 miles a day and have only gained more weight. Not sure what to think about all this.
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