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08 June 2012

Day 12: Taking it to the Spin.

Playing with Resistance - Do you want it easy or hard?


It would have been easy to go back to sleep this morning and like Proud Mary that's not how I roll these days. The spin class started at 8:15 am and I chose a bike in the back row. It was difficult to focus at times due to mind fric of all the things that were bothering me. I had to consciously work at shifting my thoughts to be present in class.

Still relatively new to spin, it was less daunting today than the first few times. Adjusting the resistance got added to the mix instead of just hoping to keep up. The instructor was clear when she told us to increase the resistance going up the hill and lower it going down. Her musical choices were motivational and I found myself singing along out loud and breathing hard. Sweating is a given. I was glad I went to class today and it made me feel better all day.

The challenge today was learning about resistance, on the bike and in life, that however hard or easy, it is ultimately in our own hands. We have the power to shift our thoughts as easy as we can change gears. It is our choice. What do you choose?

07 June 2012

Day 11: Avoiding emotional eating when sad -

Grief and Weight Gain.


Yesterday, I spoke with a vendor I do business with and shared about my triathlon training. She told me about how much weight she put on over the last few years, with the death of her father, then her mother a year ago, and her brother only a month ago. Both she and her sister noticed the weight gains and were thinking about going to Weight Watchers.

It made me think about my weight gain about three years ago with the loss of loved ones, one right after another, without any recovery time (is there any with grief?) and how long it's taken to sort through the emotions and pull myself back together. Food was a comfort as I ate my feelings and felt entitled to anything I wanted to make me feel better. There was no control or boundaries. I was hurting and nothing made me feel better.

This morning, one of my co-workers was laid off, and I was devastated. She was a go to person and I thought indispensable. Well we know about that one. On so many levels, I got reactivated. How vulnerable we are with how we make a living, how cruel to put in nine years with a company and have them say "Good bye and good luck!", how will she get by and how will it be to not have her to go to when I need her help. I was struck with waves of sadness and at times it was difficult to work. Could I be next? Employment Mortality.

Throwing myself in work helped me get through the day so I could leave early to take my daughter to a dress rehearsal and then visit my boyfriend (instead of him visiting me) since he could not leave his ill father. Care taking and grieving are exhausting and it can easily lead to emotional eating.

Instead of throwing caution to the wind, I ate at home where I could control what I was eating and brought dessert over, which included fresh fruit, mini muffins and chocolate reeses pieces. My boyfriend and I shared the fruit as if we were in a restaurant, as his dad sat on the coach watching Jeopardy. My boyfriend finished off the muffins (I knew he would) and it made him happy to eat them all. It was smart of me to eat dinner when I was hungry so I wasn't tempted.

This is new behavior that I was grieving and not eating. I'm impressed. I just feel really exhausted.

06 June 2012

Day 10: Not a Waste I See a Waist!

Ran My First Lap Around a Track Today!!!


It's 6:30am and it's a beautiful, sunny and brisk morning at the track of Roslyn High School, where I meet up with my triathlon teammates. They have already warmed up by the time I got there and I have to catch up so I quickly start to push myself. It got warm very quickly and my jacket came off after two laps of walking and running intervals. Then our coach had us pick up the pace and push harder, running half laps and then walking, until we work our way up to running the whole lap.

I could only train a half hour until I needed to get home to get ready for work. Finishing the lap made my day and I wish I could have run longer. There wasn't enough time to get that runner's high except for the amazing feeling of actually running a lap for the first time.

Here are the changes I'm noticing. First, there's a difference in the definition of my waist. My clothes fit looser. Second, I do not care about losing weight any more. I know that it is coming off and I don't care how much or how soon because I am eating healthy and watching my portions. Third, I am not hungry or feeling deprived. Fourth, I am kicking butt with my exercising. I push myself beyond what I think I can do and it feels great to see that I can do it. I keep improving every time. That's my new dessert. Five, this momentum is spilling over to the rest of my life, at work - I push myself beyond my comfort level and growing my business opportunities, and, in sharing myself and my experiences with people. If I can be of help to others, what's better than that? Well there's my bottom line. Found it!

05 June 2012

Day 9: No Swimming So My Hair Would Look Good

Did you ever not workout because you didn't want to mess up your hair?


Scheduling workouts in our busy lives can be daunting. Altering workouts based on business meetings or the time it takes to fix my hair is a whole other story.

On Monday and Wednesday nights, I enjoy my swim clinics, but the chlorine in the pool strips my color and dries it out. I need to wash the chlorine out of my hair and off my body after every swim.

At my beauty salon, I told them how often I'm swimming now and the damage it's doing to my locks to get their suggestions and feedback. They recommended a product, Kerastase Soleil Aqua-Seal, a highly protective fluid-cream with waterproof effect for very sensitized (code for colored) hair. For $39 a bottle, I hope it highly protects my hair.

It still leaves the problem of hair grooming. My hair gets a trim (I hate when they say they're only cutting an inch and I see a swept up football size hairball on the floor afterwards) and a stylish blow out which is perfect timing for my client meeting the next day. That's one less task I need to do in the morning and it gives me an edge knowing my hair looks good.

This I know. Sacrifices and compromises are a part of life. So what if I gave up swimming for one night to have good hair and less stress the next day. It gave me more time and energy to work on my presentation. It's funny, though, how much energy is involved with my hair, how long it takes to fix it and how it controls my life sometimes. Can every day be a good hair day? In your dreams...but make sure you wear a scrunchie. It's less ridges.

04 June 2012

Day 8: The Challenge of Creating (Good, Healthy, Positive) Habits

What Does it Take to Build Momentum?


So far, so good, on this quest to have a better quality of life with eating right, exercising, getting the right amount of sleep, drinking plenty of water and feeling more energized. I'm doing it right and making sure I spend some time every day blogging, reading and reflecting. I've fallen off the track a couple of times, made a few adjustments and gotten right back on. No biggie now. Ask me a couple of days ago and it was a different story while I was in the middle of it. All in all, I would have to say, I'm making progress by being willing to be out of my comfort zone and pushing through even (or especially) when it's difficult.

My triathlon training is teaching me a lot more than competitive swimming, running and cycling. I'm pushing my body in ways I thought I would never do again. I'm not there to compete in a race (although my team members tell me I will change my mind) but to see if I can do it, for fitness and weight loss. What I'm learning is that every day I do my training, I am better, stronger, and more confident. I feel deep down that I can do this and I can and I am. And that expands to any challenge in my life, any area that I want to improve, or learn.

What I have learned is that if I get tired, lazy or just want to get out of or avoid any thing difficult (i.e., exercising, planning, preparation, taking an action step, communication, tedious work) for any reason, if I remind myself of the greater benefits of pushing through, then I will certainly continue to build the momentum I need until it becomes like second nature. I will build an arsenal of healthy habits and there won't be anything I can't do.

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