I'm 26 years old, but I still feel like I'm just 12 & have no idea how to do anything & I wish someone would just tell me how life works already! Logically, I know that can't work, but that doesn't mean I don't feel frustrated every day though (or secretly wish there was a magic answer).

A huge part of what I need to do to make my healthy lifestyle is to keep exercising. I really like the app on my phone & it looks like the whole package tool I've always wanted to have to keep track. I have never seen anything covers all 24 hours of your day. Now, the HUGE part that had kept me from keeping up exercise is my anxiety. I'll be doing a walking or strength building routine & doing a good job, but my anxiety voice nags at me until I stop.

Yes, everyone has that voice but mine is a monster. It effects every part of my life. Depending on which doctor you talk too it's Social Anxiety or General Anxiety with a medium side of Depression & a large drink of Selective Mutism (this is an anxiety/fear of speaking so great one involuntarily cannot talk). They can call it a disorder but since it's not going away it's just me. I accept that...dealing with how to be me is a whole different issue.

I need a lifestyle, something that helps me plan what to do. I joined FS online because I miss myself, because of my anxiety. I liked having muscles & I know my potential to have them.

When I was 18 & started college my anxieties climaxed to the point that, that was the worst time of my entire life. All the weight I gained (fearing the scale I don't know my true highest weight, a guess going from 190 to 320lbs) was in a short 9 month timespan. It seemed unreal. I quit college & a portion of that weight seemed to drop itself because that stress/anxiety was gone, but I never gained myself back.

Thanks to my incredible super loving best boyfriend of all time I have self esteem for what might be the first time ever so, I think I can make a lifestyle for me, forever, now.