dsmith1's Journal, 25 September 2017

I have spent the past week identifying barriers, unfortunately the ones we love can become a barrier and they don't know it nor do they mean to. I have alot of support from my DH, although not always the way I need it. He loves me regardless of how I see myself, loves me unconditionally. For this challenge I have been calorie counting, unfortunately I didn't weight myself prior to the challenge because honestly I wasn't going to join one and hadn't looked at my account in a while. The night I signed up I weighted in at home and have refused to log my weight out of disbelief, I had gone up in weight prior to beginning this challenge. Since I started last week I have dropped 5 pounds and am now at the weight I thought I was when I signed up. Challenges I am having that always seem to derail all progress.... my DH and his eating habits. I love food, never have denied it. For me its the complexity it can have with so many flavors, textures, etc. When I started this challenge I decided on a strict eat what I want but keep it under 1200 calories and plenty of water. In this I have also decreased my carb intake and increased my protein. My DH challenges my dieting with the types of foods we have and with the total number of calories I am consuming. I am content at the end of the day with the 1200 calories, surprisingly enough very satisfied at the end of the day. This is where my DH comes in.. complaints when I don't want to eat because I have either maxed out my calories or if I want something minimal to keep from going over my calories. I end up feeling guilty and going over my calories at this point. I need to break free of this part of my Labyrinth! Not my DH (haha), but "my choice to keep taking the same dead end turn".