kingkeld's Journal, 16 March 2012

I seem to be losing and gaining the same three hundred grams over and over this week. This is, of course, a good thing - if only I did it at about 1500 grams lower. :)

I'm in no way unhappy with this - I'm maintaining and I'm good where I am. Wife mentioned that I looked creepy skinny this morning - and I can honestly say I am eager to get approval from the surgeons, and of course the surgery, done and over with.

I'll never be done with my weight loss journey. It will have to stay in the back of my mind, and sometimes probably much more in front. I will never go back to how it was before. I will keep doing right, and staying at this weight. I feel comfortable here, though I can actually feel a clear difference between 78 and 76 kgs. I feel physically more comfortable at 76. It's weird how I can tell. I guess it's different when there is not an extra person to carry.

I slept great last night, but it had to be like that. Yesterday was a LONG day. It was stressful, and there was so much to do. I did get it all done, and what is left should be cleared away today, according to plan.

The day did turn out to be much better than I expected, and some of the trouble cleared away all by itself. Nice. :)

I'd like to say thanks to everyone giving their two cents on the whole sleep thing. A lot of good advice, tips and tricks to fall asleep. they're all noted. Thanks! I do think that some of it is stress related, and yes - some of it is related to my surgery. Not so much the surgery itself, but the concern to find TIME for it. It's crazy busy at work, deadlines affect people's economy and life in general, and it's hard to let go of that responsibility. As of yesterday, I simply didn't see where I could fit in a surgery with several weeks of sick time afterwards into that whole mess.

Today, though, I am more comfortable with it. It'll work out in the end. I think getting things cleared (and learning a bunch of new things yesterday on how to do some of the things I still need to learn) gave me a little rest. Let's hope it lasts. Knowing myself, there will be new concerns in a few weeks. LOL. :) Nah, it's not that bad. I'll survive.

Today I will be going to work early - at 6 AM. Normally I do this on Fridays to leave early, but today I will go to finish work and save up comp time. I have next Friday off, and also the 2nd of April for my meeting with the surgeon/doctor. I need as much comp time as I can get.

Food wise I did okay yesterday. No ice cream, but more fruit and a tiny nutrition bar - and of course my regular meals.

I keep thinking that I am not eating enough, though. I am pretty consistent around 1600-2000 calories per day, and I keep the weight where I am. My exercise calculator indicates much closer to 2800-3100 per day. I know that many people feel that FatSecret is very generous when it comes to dishing out "calories burned" numbers, but surely it's not THAT generous? Life at 1800 is not always too fun. I'd like to be able to crank it up just a little more. Of course, there is also the Indulgence Day, which adds some extra calories. Sooner or later it'll all settle and make full sense to me, I suppose.

So, today I am FINALLY rockin' with my band. It's been two full weeks since last time, and I am dying to go. Not just for practicing and hanging out with my buddies, but also because I tend to lose more weight the day after rehearsal. It's hard work - we play for 4-5 hours at least, and it's all standing up, carrying a heavy 12 lbs bass guitar, and full concentration. It all burns calories, and it's the most fun "workout" in the world. Can't wait.

To cheers to a great weekend, with much relaxation and fun!

Today, I'm thankful for:
- Making it through the day yesterday, and getting stuff done!
- Rocking with the kids last night. Had fun.
- A good night's sleep.

Happy Friday, everyone! Have fun! Life is good!
173.3 lb Lost so far: 168.4 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

Diet Calendar Entries for 16 March 2012:
1774 kcal Fat: 57.33g | Prot: 100.58g | Carb: 213.11g.   Breakfast: Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), Rye Bread, Egg. Lunch:  Nupo Meal Replacement Shake chocolate flavor. Dinner: ranch dressing, Pita Bread, Chicken (Skin Not Eaten), Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables. Snacks/Other: extra lean ham, Kakao (pulver), Light Cream, banana, cream cheese, french bread. more...
2814 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sitting - 5 hours, Standing - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Music playing - 4 hours, Desk Work - 5 hours and 30 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes. more...
losing 4.6 lb a week

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Creepy skinny! Yea buddy. It makes sense that you can feel the difference in the fluctuations when you've less to compare it with. I'm sure once you get the surgery it will even out a bit more too since there will be less extraneous cellular storage space for water and whatnot. Its nice to see another musician so excited to jam. I always get so geared up before practice its almost a let down to finish, even when there is a performance the next day. Hope you blast through the items on your list today with a smile on your lips. Go man go! 
16 Mar 12 by member: Dani_Suave
LOL, Dani... I loved the "less extraneous cellular storage space for water and whatnot" line. Very adventurous. :) 
16 Mar 12 by member: kingkeld
.... The 'creepy skinny' quote ...is that compliment or not?!?, LOL. On a serious note, do people say you are getting TOO skinny? Or are you going to stop now? I am never quite sure how to view this, as I am 10pounds above my 'ideal' weight. Not that I am trying to loose, I am not. I do think the exercise - like your bike - changes your body shape so people THINK you are loosing. Or maybe it is because people just aren't used to seeing us 'slim'. Have a great night with the band - sounds great fun :-) 
16 Mar 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
SkInny, "Creepy Skinny" was NOT a compliment, much more a concern. I am really boney these days. I get the "Don't get TOO skinny" and "When are you gonna stop" comments constantly. I tell people that I AM done, and have stopped. That's how I see myself, pretty much. My last goal is that I on the 2nd of April WANT to be below 77 kgs, simply because that is the goal I set out to accomplish. I would feel best if I did it. Mission accomplished, you know. Maybe I should take a pic for you guys, so you can see the current Kingkeld. I am definitely getting very boney.  
16 Mar 12 by member: kingkeld
I have wondered before whether the 77kg for your height and weight is an ideal WITHOUT the extra skin and I wonder too what you'll weigh after your surgery. Maybe you'll have to gain a little? 
16 Mar 12 by member: Earthlady
Definitely take a new picture. We'd love to see it. And I'm glad you're going to get a chance to rock with your band. On the Exercise Diary, it is very generous. I've found if you don't record the day-to-day stuff like standing, sitting, desk work, and only record your exercise, it's a lot closer to accurate.  
16 Mar 12 by member: Helewis
Keep on Rockin' Pal! 
16 Mar 12 by member: posterchild66
When I got down really low a couple year ago people kept telling me I was "creepy skinny" and asking if I was sick. Definitely not nice! I didn't like to hear it then and just thought they couldn't get used to a thinner me...but now looking at photo's I see what they mean and don't plan to be THAT thin again. LOL!!! SOO glad you got some sleep :) 
16 Mar 12 by member: calannapy
Yeh. I agree with EarthLady. I think that 1500 grams you want to disappear will do so with the surgery! -- and maybe a bit more. Congrats, KK. Wow that is so amazing. I'm so happy for you. You are my idol. 
16 Mar 12 by member: Rob.c.weiss
i lost 6lbs in "skin" and 4lbs in boob with my surgery. and at 18 days post op today- i went for a run :) so recovery is NOT as bad and as long as you anticipate so chill!  
16 Mar 12 by member: NewSarah!
The point to me losing the last 1500 is not to as much having lost it after the surgery but having lost it BEFORE the pre-op interview, which is in a couple of weeks. The point is, that I have had it as a goal to reach BELOW 77 before that meeting, and be there when I go. Whether I gain a kg or two afterwards, I don't really care. What's important it meeting my goal on the day, as I set out to.  
17 Mar 12 by member: kingkeld
LOL KingKeld... That is why you have succeeded - very goal orientated. If you look at most people on FS, who have lost lots of weight, they always have goals that they focus on. Even when you have lost what you want to - you are still striving, for that goal you set yourself last year. It's a sense of achievement - something you must do. That's why, I am not setting myself, anymore "weight loss" or other goals on here. I get to "obsessive" and won't stop until I reach them - even if it is detrimental. Roll on for your op, so that you can put that goal behind you; and feel that sense of achievement for having reached it. Have a great weekend :-) 
17 Mar 12 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
You too, skInny  
17 Mar 12 by member: kingkeld

     
 

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